Hot Rod Lincoln

The heat above the track didn’t just rise—it shimmered. It was a midsummer night, long past midnight, and only the headlights of two powerful cars cut through the darkness as their V-8 engines rumbled. Beyond them stretched pitch-black emptiness and a sky crowded with stars. 

Hector sat strapped into the stripped-down cockpit of the Lincoln, his chest pinned by the four-point harness. The air smelled of raw gasoline, hot oil, and the copper edge of adrenaline. He glanced at the rearview mirror, where his Tia’s wooden rosary swung in tight, frantic arcs against the metal bracket—a sharp contrast to the stillness of the staging lanes. She would be proud of what I turned her papa’s car into. 

Outside, the track announcer’s voice crackled through a blown speaker, but Hector barely heard it. His eyes stayed fixed on his flag holding cousin down the strip. 

To his left, a rich kid from the north side blipped the throttle of a brand-new 1980 Chevy Camaro Z28. The Camaro purred with expensive, sterile precision—the kind of car bought with a father’s signature at the dealership. 

Hector looked at his dashboard—or what remained of it. The plush leather and faux-wood trim of the ’51 Cosmopolitan had been hacked away years ago with a Sawzall. In its place were raw sheet metal, a fuel-pump toggle switch, and a huge Autometer tachometer hose-clamped to the steering column. He had built this beast in the dirt lot behind his uncle’s salvage yard with scrap iron, swapped parts, and bleeding knuckles. 

He tapped the gas pedal. Through the crude hole cut in the hood, the massive 460 V8 cleared its throat. White fender-well headers dumped exhaust directly onto the asphalt beneath his boots. The sound wasn’t a purr but a hard, metal-shaking chop that thudded in his chest. The entire 4,000-pound tank rocked on its leaf springs with every pulse. 

The track marshal waved them forward. 

Hector rolled the Lincoln into the water box, set the line-lock, dumped the clutch, and hammered the throttle. The massive Mickey Thompson slicks spun at once, exploding into a blinding cloud of white smoke that swallowed the car. Burning rubber flooded the cabin, intoxicating and violent. He released the button, and the Lincoln bit into the track and lunged into the staging box, spray-painted white by his cousin Roberto. 

He crept forward. His cousin stood between the lanes, straddling the stripe with a yellow flag raised. A folded green flag hung in his left hand, and both drivers stared at it. 

The Camaro crept up.  

Hector exhaled, his hand resting on the white Hurst shifter ball. He nudged the Lincoln forward an inch. Roberto flicked the yellow flag. Hector staged. Sweat ran freely from beneath his helmet, tracing his jaw, and pooling on his gray V-shirt. 

Beside him, the Camaro staged. His father a rich farmer owned an Avocado grove. He was Mi Padre’s favorite. 

The world narrowed to two yellow flags Roberto held tightly in his right hand  and one green in his left. Hector held the engine at a screaming 4,500 RPM. The Lincoln strained against the brakes, its straight axle high, nose tipped skyward like a weapon. 

Yellow. 

Yellow. 

Green flag waved frantically side by side. Hector dumped the clutch, and the car lunged forward. He grabbed second, then third, eyes flicking from the tach past 2,000 RPM to the girl at the finish line waving the checkered flag—the girl he wanted, rushing closer in a blur of heat and speed. 

The Camaro stayed with him, edging closer as if it was about to pass. Hector pressed the clutch one last time to shift into fourth when a horrible sound tore out from under the hood. 

Black and gray smoke burst up, and Hector knew instantly he had lost—the race and the girl he wanted. The Camaro shot past as his Hot Rod Lincoln limped to the shoulder of the abandoned highway south of Tijuana. 

Aftermath 

The tow truck brought the rod into the wrecking yard where his uncle unlocked the gate and Roberto drove the truck passed the opened gate and into the yard where skeletons of every make and model resided in this vehicle graveyard. 

Hector pulled himself from the truck’s passenger seat, slamming the door with rage and passion his uncle knew from his brother’s Hector’s deceased father. 

“I take it the race did not go planned,” Alberto expressed soberly. 

“I lost Uncle! That’s all I want to say right now.” He flung his helmet out to the yard, striking the hood of a Cadillac Seville. Dawn was breaking in the east the shepherds who guarded the salvage yard barked menacingly at Hector. 

“Shut the hell up!” He yelled at them. 

“Hector, at ease, and that’s an order!” Alberto commanded in his USMC Gunnery sergeant voice. 

Hector looked at the car, still hooked up and steaming. The smell of burnt oil was heavy in the air. He began the process of lowering it to the ground and unhooking the chains from the Lincoln. Once he finished he, Roberto and Uncle Alberto pushed the car back inside the shop. 

Overhead fluorescent tubes lit up the moderate sized garage where other old relics are in various forms of repair or cannibalism, from a Plymouth Belvedere, Ford Galaxy and Buick Electra. They used their combined strength to slow the Lincoln to a stop. 

Hector raised the hood. The stench, a mechanical odor that reminded them of death. Hector began tearing into the engine grabbing his wrenches and sockets to begin the process of tearing the engine down to that point where the autopsy would reveal its cause of death on that quarter mile stretch of deserted highway. 

“You can get into that after you’ve rested. You’ve been up all night, Hector,” Alberto told him. 

“I’m not tired uncle,” Hector replied. 

“I’m not asking Hector. You will go to your room and go to bed. In six hours, you can come back here and take the engine apart and discover what happened. Then you will replace, repair, adapt and overcome. Go to bed now. That’s an order.” 

Hector wanted to throw the wrenches throughout the shop. His temper felt so intense that he needed to let off steam. But the only way he knew how was broke down and in need of repair, his Hotrod Lincoln. 

Hector placed the wrench on the flat black fender and walked to the stairs and went up the steps one step at a time. His thoughts a whirl on conflict, wondering what if I’d done this or that.  

He went into his room and laid on the mattress. He was fully clothed and he stared up at the ceiling. In due time his eyes grew heavy, and he fell asleep from exhaustion. The adrenaline of seven hours ago finally drained and sleep overtook him. 

Cause 

Hector awoke hungry at around 4:30 later that afternoon. An aroma of chorizo chopped onions and peppers wafted up to his room. He pulled himself out of bed, undressed and went to the bathroom where he took a shower to get his motor running. He continued thinking what went wrong, where he messed up at and what he needed to fix it. 

“It’s not like I don’t have another engine that I can just throw in that car. The wrecking yard is full of engines. But that was so perfect and sounded so badass.” He finished rinsing and shut off the taps, stepping out from the tub and drying himself as he made his way back in his room.  

After he dressed he went downstairs to the main part of the casa, a simply built structure that at one time was a barn that his uncle bought but converted into an adobe house. Tiled floors, cool to the touch of his bare feet greeted him. Tio Alberto spared no expense on the renovation adding modern appliances to the kitchen.  

His focus at that moment wasn’t on how the rest of the house looked or how it aesthetics pleased his eyes, but on the skillet in front of his big-bone Tia, Rosa. She smiled warmly at her nephew. “Hector, it’s good to see you awake and refreshed. Alberto told me about the race last night. I’m very sorry for your misfortune. Will you be able to repair the problem?” she asked him in Spanish. 

“Yes, Tia, I intend to go in and check the entire engine and hopefully I can fix it. But I can always find another motor though I love this one.” 

“Of course you do. It’s your baby!” She scooped up the concoction with a side of rice and black beans onto a plate and handed it to him. “Eat well, Hector. There is more if you want.” 

“Gracias, Tia Rosa,” Hector replied and went to a simple pine plank table, crossed himself, said a silent prayer of thanks to Our Lord and Savior, and began eating his breakfast lunch and supper. Heated tostados sat on another plate that he grabbed and rolled up, adding hot peppers and onion salsa with the beans and rice. Rosa set a cup of coffee next to his plate just as Alberto and his cousin Roberto walked in from a side door where the wrecked and broken-down cars sat. 

“Are you ready to tackle that project now Hector?” Alberto asked. 

“Yes, and I am sorry I was so upset this morning,” Hector replied to the large man as he sat at the table and waited on his wife to serve him his supper. Roberto sat next to Hector. Both he and Alberto crossed themselves and silently prayed Thanks then they proceeded to eat the meals in front of them. Rosa finally sat down and did the same. 

After supper, the three men went into the shop and began removing the engine parts, one by one, inspecting each piece, determining if this or that was the culprit. Finally, after removing the head on the driver’s side, Hector discovered the cause, a bent push rod that once it fell to the shop’s cement floor broke in half. 

“Roberto, go find another push rod that is this exact measurement,” Alberto told his son. 

“Si, Papa.” Roberto went outside to where other engine parts laid about on a long table, taking with him another pushrod that was still good. He smiled good-naturedly at his cousin before disappearing outside. 

Alberto looked at the head closely. “That isn’t the problem, Hector but a symptom of a larger problem. See here, this valve is still open as if the oil didn’t reach the spring to close properly in time. You ran at such a high RPM, it could have caused this to happen,” he explained to his nephew.  

“Check this too: Rocker arms and rocker shaft — Look for worn pivots, broken springs, loose mounting hardware, or damaged rocker tips. Valve springs — Check for broken coils, weak tension, or collapsed springs. A weak or broken spring can allow valve float, which can bend a pushrod. Valve stems and guides — Ensure the valve moves freely and isn’t sticking; a stuck valve is a classic cause of pushrod bending.  

“Other pushrods — If one bent, others may be worn, cracked, or beginning to deform.” 

“This is going to take some time, Tio.” 

“You don’t race again until it’s fixed, Hector. Be patient and treat this like a grandfather clock. It must be treated with the utmost respect and love.” He gave Hector a shoulder hug showing a big toothy grin beneath a heavy black mustache. Hector bore the same smile and returned the hug. “Check the timing chain and camshaft too, Hector.” 

“I saw an F-250 came in the other day, Tio.” 

“It’s has a 429, I know. If we have to we can swap out many of the components including the head.” 

“But will it be race ready?” Hector asked more to himself than his uncle. 

“That is up to you, Hector. Start tearing the engine down further and if it is part of a larger problem, which it undoubtedly is, then we can always swap out the engines and begin gearing it and timing it make it worthy for racing.” 

“Yes, Tio, I will continue the process.” 

“Sorry Cousin, no luck finding a match for this particular pushrod,” Roberto expressed with disappointment in his voice. 

“That’s quite alright, Roberto. Hector is going to inspect the motor further. Go out to that truck we brought in the other day, the F-250 and start tearing it down.” 

“Si, Papa,” Roberto said as he grabbed his personal toolbox and left them. 

Throughout the majority of the night, the tedious process continued until Hector discovered the actual cause, which was: Valve float at high RPM — Valve stayed open too long, which caused the piston hit it, and the force buckled the pushrod, hydraulic lock (fuel in the cylinder) — Piston compressed fluid, pressure forced the valve open violently, bending the pushrod, and improper valve adjustment — Too-tight lash or aggressive cam profiles overloaded the pushrod. 

Hector found similar issues with the seating and the valve springs set too tight. “How could I have been so stupid?” 

“There are reasons, Hector why you read the manual and make the proper adjustments within its limits, or this can happen.” 

Hector listened to his uncle but didn’t reply. A steely eyed determination set his face into a stone-cold sober expression. He left the shop and walked outside to get a breath of air. It wasn’t fresh by any stretch, but it was a way of him to cool his temper and not lash out at Uncle Alberto. “It’s not his fault I messed up, but mine. All Mine!” 

New Attitude 

All three men worked their normal jobs scavenging parts to sell to other motorheads in the southeastern portion of Tijuana area. The surrounding barrios gave them a lucrative business from outlaw street racers and dragsters to low riders to vaqueros with their beaten-up Ford or Chevy or Dodge pickups, sometimes with bales of hay on the bed. 

At night after they ate their simple supper they went into the shop and set about rebuilding that engine. Hector learned his lesson by not overdoing the tolerances set forth by the Chilton catalog specs. He used the torque wrench and calibrated it to the absolute micrometer of tolerance. 

Two weeks they methodically rebuilt that motor until it appeared ready. They set it on a stand, using a battery from another vehicle, an ignition button and a prayer, they did the first test start. It made a horrendous unmuffled explosive burst of power. The shop doors were opened to allow the exhaust to escape outside. The 429 was ready to be mated to the Lincoln’s four speed transmission. 

The dogs outside started barking in a menacing tone warning them there was someone at the gate. Roberto grabbed his .32 revolver and investigated. Hector and Alberto moved the engine stand with the new engine to the Lincoln. Both heard the exchange of Roberto talking to whomever the stranger was. 

“You are on private property esse,” Roberto told the person in Spanish. 

“You don’t know who I am, amigo?” 

“No, you tell and I won’t shoot you in the head and feed you to my dogs.” 

“Where’s Hector? He’s the one I need to talk to,” the woman’s voice replied. As soon as Hector heard his name, he perked up and walked carefully to the shop’s entrance and looked outside at the gate where he spotted Sanchez’s girl Maria, the flag girl from nearly two weeks ago. 

“I’m Hector. What do you want? This ain’t your territory! You should go back to the northside where you belong, among your rich farmer friends.” 

“Carlos wants to challenge you again. He felt sorry for you for losing the way you did,” Maria told him haughtily. “He will be more generous this time.” Laughter was heard in the shadows obviously Carlos Sanchez was waiting in the car while she talked bravely to him and Roberto. 

“Why don’t he come out of his dad’s fancy car and challenge me himself? Or is he too much a coward to face me like a man?” 

Roberto glanced at Hector with a sense of nervous anticipation in his eyes. “Cousin?” 

“Okay, asshole, here I am,” Carlos announced in a loud and obnoxious tone that matched his husky body type. Hector saw his face was concealed by the streetlight shadow off his white cowboy hat, obviously handmade and tailored for his large head. His jeans and button-down checkered shirt screamed Northern Tijuana where all the rich Mexicans lived in their orchards, groves and vineyards. “You got balls to take my challenge?” 

“Yeah, I accept your challenge. Let’s raise the stakes a little higher this time.” He walked out to the closed gate where Carlos, a much bigger man than Hector stood looking down at him with a sneer on his mouth. 

“Yeah?” 

“Yeah, let me take your woman for a night. By the time I’m through with her, she’ll forget all about you!” Hector and Roberto laughed. 

“You mother—” 

A click of the pistol’s hammer coming back cocked, stopped Carlos in his tracks. He smiled ruthlessly at Hector. “Sure, why not. She won’t mess with your kind anyway.” 

“Probably not your kind either,” Hector opined glancing at the indignant Maria. “Isn’t that right Maria?” 

She gave both a pouty face expression and stormed to the Camaro, slamming the door behind her. 

“God dammit! I told you no slamming the door!” Carlos yelled after her. “Same place Saturday night after midnight, Gonzales!” He backed himself up to his car, got inside and backed up, turning right and then peeled the rear tires on the asphalt road, heading back north. 

“Looks like you got your work cut out for you, Hector.” Alberto stated as he came up beside him. 

“Yeah, but I know I can beat him.” 

A Visitor 

Saturday morning, the dogs barked warning the Gonzales men someone was at the gate. They all finally finished with the final tuning of the Lincoln and had gone to bed well after midnight. It was a little passed seven, according to Hector’s old fashion alarm clock with a pair of bells on its top. 

“Who could that be?” Alberto asked his wife his voice carrying throughout the casa. Hector quickly threw on his pants and grabbed his personal .38 revolver on the nightstand next to the clock and followed Alberto and Roberto downstairs. Rosa looked with concern at all three men as they passed her and went through the shop. 

“Ola,” a familiar voice resounded while the three men greeted the morning with sun blinding them as they ventured cautiously toward the gate where a soldier of the Mexican Army stood at parade-rest waiting to be let in. He had the rank of Lieutenant on his collars, and aviator wings over his nametag over his right breast pocket. 

“Geraldo, you stupid son of a bitch,” exclaimed Alberto who stopped, placed himself in the position of attention and saluted him. Geraldo returned the salute, grinning like a fool. He waited while Roberto gathered the two dogs, hell bent to have him for breakfast and Alberto opened the gate to let Hector’s brother inside. They both hugged the helicopter pilot then they went through the shop. 

Geraldo admired the Lincoln parked inside before continuing into the main house where Rosa greeted him with a tearful hug. “How is everyone?” Geraldo asked with enthusiasm in his rich baritone voice. 

Soon Roberto joined them and they all sat at the dining table, Alberto began, “What brings you to our humble casa?” 

“I’m on leave before my final mission and hitch is up. I even have a job when I get out. I’m going to be a Federales Policia and flying helicopter for them,” he boasted to the cheers of the family. 

“I’m so proud of you nephew,” Alberto stated with an emotional tug to his voice. Though Hector also felt pride for his older brother, he also felt a twinge of jealousy. 

“I congratulate you brother,” Hector told him as he slapped his large shoulder. 

Geraldo turned around and smiled at Hector. “You need to make something of yourself too, Hector.” 

“I intend to,” he replied defensively. 

“What? Build dragsters and hotrods? That is not planning for the future, brother.” 

“I tell you what, I bet I will be as successful if not more so than you,” he half seriously jibed. 

“Oh, really,” Geraldo laughed. “I doubt that very much.” 

“Sounds like a family wager to me,” Alberto told the two. “How much?” 

Hector looked right at Geraldo and replied, “I will wager five hundred pesos.” 

“Let’s make it more interesting brother, sixteen hundred peso,” Geraldo upped the ante. 

Hector showed no fear as he drew his hand out to shake with his brother. He quickly clasped his big hand over Hector’s, and they shook on the deal.  

The family laughed at the exchange. “By the way, I too have news to share,” Hector told his family after releasing his grip from his brother’s. “I was going to surprise everyone at the end of the month but, I enlisted in the United States Marine Corps, just like Tio Alberto.” 

The place seemed deathly quiet, as if he mentioned something forbidden. Everyone stared at him as if he was kidding, but Hector’s straight-lined mouth and sober expression revealed that he was serious. 

“When did you do this?” Alberto demanded. 

“Last month, I decided I needed to plan on my future as well. Geraldo’s right, I need to show myself to the world and building hotrods and street racers is not going to do that. Unless of course I emigrate to America and be lucky enough to get hired by a drag race team, and what are the odds of that happening to someone like me?” 

Everyone looked to Alberto for his blessing. He slowly sat down, ruminating on this news. He finally looked at Hector and smiled, “God bless you and our family. You both have made me very proud. I just wish your parents could see this joyful moment.” They all crossed themselves reverently. 

After breakfast, Hector and Geraldo took the Lincoln out for a brief spin in the hills overlooking the Tijuana skyline and its panorama views of Northwestern Mexico and in the distance a hazy view of San Diego. They put the Lincoln through its paces, though it was nothing compared to later tonight. Hector tried not to think about that while they both leaned against the hood and saw the boundary of the north and south by the quality of the homes each side lived on. 

“You made Uncle Alberto proud, Hector. I think he wanted Roberto to follow in his shoes, but you beat him to it.” 

“Roberto tried talking me out of it,” Hector replied. “I think maybe he did want to enlist. I don’t know, I think up here,” Hector pointed at his head, “Roberto may not have what it takes to be a good Marine. I don’t know if I have that either, but I have to do something other than sell automobile parts to make a living. Roberto is a natural at what he’s doing now. I can’t do that.” 

“What about after? Are you going to go into something else related to the military?” 

“I haven’t thought that far ahead, Geraldo.” 

“Law enforcement is always a good option. It’s what I’m doing, abet as a helo pilot.” 

“Just be careful, brother. I want to collect on that bet,” Hector punched him in the shoulder. Geraldo punched back nearly knocking him to the ground. 

“I intend to, brother because I too intend to collect on that wager, so you best be careful as well.” 

The Race 

High winds kicked up lose sand granules flinging them into the faces of the lines of bystanders along each embankment of the same abandoned highway as two weeks ago. 

Hector drove his Lincoln to the sprayed painted white starting line. The Camaro was already in position. He wore his helmet with goggles to help keep the blowing sand out of his eyes. He looked across at the newer car and noticed Maria sitting in the front passenger seat next to her beau Carlos. 

“Who’s going to be the flagger?” Hector yelled across at Carlos amid the ground shaking rumble of the two powerful motors. 

“Roberto will flag!” Carlos yelled back at him. 

Geraldo came up to Hector’s driver side. “Is there a problem?” 

“Yes, that bitch over there in Carlos’ car isn’t flagging tonight,” Hector replied dismayed. 

“It’s all good. I will wave the checkered flag. Is Roberto going to wave the yellow and green flag?” 

“Yes, that was the idea until this came up,” Hector told him with building frustration in his eighteen-year-old voice. 

“Chill man,” Geraldo tried soothing his brother’s emotion. “I’ll grab the flag and run down there. Is there a finish line?” 

“Yes, it too is spray painted white. You can’t miss it.”  

“Senors and Señoritas, tonight we have the rematch of the century!” The MC announced through his bullhorn. “Inside the brand new 1980 Camaro, CARLOS SANCHEZ!” Carlos revved the small block V-8, though muffled still sounded impressive amid cheers from the northside crowd. 

“And in the 1951 Lincoln Cosmopolitan, give it up for HECTOR GONZALEZ AND HOTROD LINCOLN!!!” It was his turn to rev the new 429 V-8 big block that sounded like the demons from hell unleashing their fury on mortal man. The ground vibrated with a sinister sound not heard in years. The southside barrio crowds roared as loud if not louder than the Lincoln’s rumble. 

Both cars heated their tires, peeling out and stopping before backing up. Hector felt the adrenaline firing off inside his body as much as each spark plug fired off on his rod. He did his best not to show the anticipation, trying to just focus on Geraldo, who he barely made out in the darkness. Two men on each side of the highway shined their flashlights along the same finish line. Roberto got his cue from a man in black coat and bow tie. He wore a top hat. Roberto raised the yellow flag to signal stage one. Both cars moved slowly to the starting line.  

Roberto then waved the yellow a second time, and both cars revved their engines loud, LOUDER, LOUDER.” 

Roberto then waved the green flag, and both were off at the same time. A rush of climax hit Hector as though someone hit him between the eyes as he shifted rapidly while the tachometer needle hit 2,000 at each upshift, finally reaching fourth gear and screaming to the finish line. 

He barely noticed the Camaro as it just passed him at the finish line and saw his taillights. “Damn, I lost,” Hector exclaimed in disappointment when the unimaginable occurred. Hector couldn’t believe his eyes as the car in front of him abruptly went sideways then end over end and exploded in an orange ball of flame. Hector quickly skidded to a stop and shut off the car. He pulled himself from the opened window and ran as fast as he could to the burning wreckage.  

Geraldo passed him by and got there first. He pulled Maria out from there and laid her along the embankment. Hector got there just in time to see Carlos inside trying to escape the flames that quickly engulfed him. 

Hector tried pulling him out, but his harness prevented that and the nightmare continued as he heard Carlos’ screams of pain and agony until deathly quiet flooded the night with its zephyr-like winds. The flames continued unabated until a firetruck arrived and the firefighters put out the flames.  

They left Carlos’ body inside and local alguacil dispersed the crowd, all of whom were shocked beyond measure at the horror they witnessed. 

Dawn broke and Hector sat inside his car. An ambulance took Maria to the hospital. He had no idea how serious her injuries were, though she was conscious and asking, pleading for Carlos. Roberto and Geraldo stood next to Hector, leaning on the flat black painted car with her name stenciled along its side. 

“Let’s take her home,” Hector told the two. 

End 

Strange People

It’s me, Tommy, you know Master Jerry’s cat. Elsa and I had this strange visit the other day by these strange people that just came in out of the blue. At least I wasn’t aware they were coming. It does explain Master Jerry’s strange behavior before they arrived. 

You see, he busied himself for four days cleaning our home. I stayed out of his way, naturally since I didn’t want him stepping on my tail or something. So, I was outside most of the time while he was inside doing whatever humans do to make a fuss over what I thought is a waste of time. 

Anyway, whenever I came in on demand, then left on demand, I noticed a portion of home wasn’t just wiped down and organized, but clean. Clean, Clean, CLEAN! 

It made no sense to me, after all I’m perfectly content to allow our home to be as it is just as long as my litter box is clean. Elsa concurs that so long as she is fed she is happy. I noticed he didn’t clean her cage, though he did that last week. 

They showed up on a Friday, I believe it was. A bearded man drove a black truck onto my territory. I simply tolerate the dog named Amber and the other humans who lives here, but my heckles raised when I saw this truck stop and the man and blonde-haired woman pulled themselves from this truck and began walking toward my trailer, our home. Who are they? Why are they here? What are they doing?  

I snuck underneath the trailer and overheard Master Jerry talking to these strange people. I listened but didn’t understand what the woman was saying or the strange man either. Master Jerry apologized he hadn’t finished cleaning the bathroom yet. 

Bathroom? That glass cub that sprays water inside, making him wet then come out smelling funny? Or is that room he calls a water closet where the vacuum and mops and brooms are stored along with his litter box or that sink? Who cares! 

I heard them talking some more then everyone came out and walked to the vacant lot that Amber and I like taking walks on to catch mice and birds. I stayed hiding in plane sight while I heard them talking about where they were going to sleep tonight. Something about putting a tent up on back of the pickup. 

I finally went near enough to them to get a good whiff of them, but it wasn’t anything I was familiar with. Perhaps their odors were different for some reason. At any rate, the woman seemed more attached to Master Jerry than the man. Could they be related? The question hung in my curiosity until I came up to Master Jerry and asked who she is.  

“That’s my sister,” he informed me. Somehow he has this uncanny ability to interpret what I say. He smiled down at me and sister wanted to reach down and pet me, but I would have none of that. I hissed at her and ran underneath the trailer. That will teach her. 

They still haven’t left yet! Why don’t they go? They’re doing something called a barbeque, whatever that is. I watch them sitting on lawn chairs talking with the other people who live here. Master Jerry is playing with the little boy they call Evan. I avoid him too. He wants to play but I rather hunt mice. Bird! I see a bird. I crouch down and slowly move toward it. And then I pounce on him. He puts up a fight and tries escaping me. Everyone is watching me now, watching me play with it as it tries flying away and I leap on it.  

Amber wants in on the fun too, but I won’t let her. We have him cornered and the little boy wants in now too. I hear the woman called Momma or Emely tell them to let me put it out of it’s misery. How do I do that? 

Master Jerry and sister go into the trailer, the silver dome shaped thing on wheels Jerry rolls out to the door. The man he calls Nick hefts a cylindrical bubble looking thing over and attaches a hose to it and then it’s turned on.  

Master Jerry turns a knob and pushes a button, and I hear a whoosh sound and smell rotting eggs emit. I hide under the trailer and wait. A few minutes later I smell meat. I love the smell of meat and am happy that Master Jerry is cooking meat. I hope he gives me some. 

But he doesn’t and I’m stuck eating kibbles out of my dish instead. I stare at her and him wondering what they are doing and why they haven’t left yet. She keeps talking to me to come over and let her pet me. But I’m not going to give her the pleasure. 

Instead, I just stare at her waiting for her and that Nick man to get up and leave. As far as I am concerned, they have overstayed their welcome and need to go away, so I can relax and hang out with Master Jerry and Elsa. Oh, they are leaving! How sad, and we just hardly met. Bye Bye strange people! 

Under The Bridge

“You got the shit?” The angry appearing Black man sneered at the dwarf with big mutton chops and one patch over his left eye. They rendezvoused at Monroe Street Bridge. The Hunter’s Moon was full and white and bright; there was no need for streetlights as the satellite showed everything this October night a little after midnight. 

“Why certainly,” Howard said with a phony Chicago accent, but this man wouldn’t know the difference. He held up a book pack that he borrowed from his daughter to do this deal. “Just out of curiosity, who is this for?” 

“Ain’t none of your business!” He snarled back at Howard the undercover FBI agent dressed in jeans and an overcoat with a fedora similar to what Mark normally wore only black. 

“Like I said,” Howard said in a soothing tone to calm both their nerves. “I’m only curious. It isn’t Nick, or Bob is it?” 

“Who the hell you talking about cracker? No, it ain’t none of them dudes. “It’s Bates, okay?” He looked at Howard with suspicion. “You a cop?” 

“No, I’m Ramrod, your neighborhood dealer, making sure neither Nick nor Bob are going to get this. It’s enormously powerful stuff. They couldn’t handle it.” 

“You are a crazy mother fucker man! Here’s the money, take it before I change my mind!” 

“Is it all there?” Howard asked. 

“Five big just like we agreed to over the phone!” 

“FBI you’re under arrest!” Boomed the unmistakable voice of Special Agent Mark Marteau while spotlights drowned out the moonbeam that cast down on them a brief second ago. Hector led four other agents and Spokane narcotics task force officers on them quickly, cuffing both before a shot could be fired. 

“There must be some sort of mistake,” Howard informed the arresting officers who manhandled him into a waiting Ford Crown Victoria unmarked police cruiser. 

“Oh, it’s no mistake, you piece of shit scumbag,” Mark told him as he watched Howard being pushed inside and the back door closed. Hector and Chester got into the front seat and drove from the scene. 

“I say, we got that small fish, but we need the barracuda,” Howard told them. 

“Or the shark for that matter,” Chester agreed. “You’ll still have to play your part in the cell until interrogation.” 

“I’ll try my wonderful charm on him some more.” 

“Who’s Nick and Bob?” 

“Friends I knew when I was growing up in Boston, Hector. Unfortunately, they are no longer with us.” 

“Sounds like a story to me,” Chester goaded Howard. 

“I suppose we have time to tell this tragic tale.” 

“You ain’t going to go all Shakespearian on us are you?” Hector asked with dismay. 

“Perhaps, but it is something I’ll never forget for as long as I live.” 

“Begin,” Chester coached Howard. 

“Very well but be a good man and undo these cuffs until I’m done.” Hector pulled off a side street and into a back parking lot behind a business building. He parked the car while Chester got out, opened the back door and uncuffed Howard who rubbed his hands gratefully. 

“Get on with it already.” 

“Bob and Nick were close friends of mine in college. We were freshmen then and seemed to have the tiger by the tale. I went to Boston College then. Obviously, we imbibed too much and did things I hope my daughter doesn’t do that would keep me up at night. 

“At any rate, all three of us lived in the same dorm. I had plans for majoring in psychology and being a counselor, Bob was a science nerd and intended to move up the ladder to MIT and get his masters and PHD there.” He paused a moment trying to gather his thoughts or relive this memory.  

“Nick, dear Nick was an up-and-coming poet and writer. He was already published through magazines in Boston and New York. We laughed until he showed us the cancelled check from Playboy of a story they published and it had nothing to do with sex but about some lad coming of age. 

“But I digress. The story itself is a tale that I have kept hidden in the deepest and darkest recesses of my mind. It was, oh hell when was it? It must’ve been after our second semester started and we were watching Miracle on Ice at the Olympics in New York. Lake Placid I believe it was.  

“We were all just besides ourselves in an abundance of joy and too many beers, possibly marijuana too. On a whim, we walked—most likely we staggered to the Longfellow bridge at the Charles River. 

I had a jug of wine in my gloved hand, wandering the mostly empty street. It had snowed recently and snow berms as high as Chester were going along the street and blocking my view of my chums who decided to traverse that berm and play king of the hill, pushing each other off and having a grand old time. I naturally stayed below and watched them.” 

“Were they small like you, Howard?” Hector asked still in the driver’s seat. The Ford sedan idling. 

“No, quite the opposite really. I believe Nick was around five-ten and Bob was a tall gangly fellow over six foot. They frolicked and then we saw these rascals down the street coming towards us.  

“I don’t recall who saw who first, maybe it was at the same time. They were quite young, this gang of thugs. They wore their colors proudly displaying Red Sox ball caps worn sideways on their heads. 

“They obviously spotted me first and ran to obviously accost me, but Nick and Bob came down and stood next to me. They stopped on their tracks and began hurling insults at us apparently they were ready for a fight, which was why I never found out. 

“The biggest of this group came up to me and threw me into the snowbank. His friends laughed of course. I was fit to be tied but obviously couldn’t do anything more than use all my strength to right myself up. I then turned around just in time to see my friend Bob land an uppercut to the tyrant’s face and nose, seeing the effect as blood spurted everywhere on the street. Nick took care of the other youth who tried but failed to put up a decent fight. 

“Suddenly a pistol came out and a shot was fired. Bob fell next to me and Nick stood there frozen in place. The gun in his hand. The other gang ran off. 

‘Oh, dear God,’ “Nick shouted out in disbelief. ‘Are you okay?’” 

‘Why are you holding that gun?’ “I shouted at him. Bob was conscious but moaning in pain.” 

‘It’s for self-protection,’ “he told me. He still held the gun, a revolver I believe it was. 

‘Go to the neighbors and tell them to call the police,’ “I told Nick, hoping he’d put the gun down and do what I told him. He ran down the street instead, obviously in a panic about what he’d done. He ran to the bridge.” 

‘Wait, come back here,’ “I cried out to him. By then I finally got myself out of the snow berm and upright looking down at Bob. I immediately assessed his wound. Blood soaked out on his coat and from his stomach. I knew it wasn’t good but figured he would survive. 

“So, I went to the neighbor’s house across the street and banged on the door. An elderly woman in her housecoat and slippers answered the door hesitantly. I asked her to call the police to say that my friend had been shot and needed immediate attention. It was then I heard the other shot coming in the direction of the Longfellow Bridge and the Charles River. 

“I don’t know what she said because I ran back out onto the street and in the direction of the shot, fearing the worse. I got there and didn’t see Nick. I didn’t see anyone. I then ran under the bridge and I then saw Nick, lying prostate on the ground with his eyes string vacantly into the substructure of piers and supports. The revolver lay next to him. A bullet hole was at the side of his head. I knew he was dead. 

“By the time I got back out of that bank and began walking back to Bob I saw the first of many police cars and ambulances arrive, there were emergency lights flashing everywhere. They wouldn’t let me see Bob and I found out the next day he had passed.” 

“Damn, dude, that’s tough,” Hector expressed with sadness in his voice. 

“I’m sorry for your loss too,” Chester said wrapping his big arm around Howard’s shoulder in a comforting manner. He then placed the cuffs back on Howard’s wrists and got out from the back seat, closed the back door and went and sat next Hector in the front seat. 

“There is a silver lining in all of this.” 

“Yeah, what’s that?” Chester asked. 

“A week later I changed my minor from theater to Criminal Justice, realizing I did indeed have a gift for what I’m doing now.” 

“You’ll always be an actor, Howard, as we all are I guess,” Hector told them as he placed the car into drive and whipped out from the parking lot and toward the Justice Center. 

Another Loss

Not that I enjoy expressing sad news to you my loyal readers, but this truly is where the cure is as bad as the disease. A hotel housekeeping supervisor who I have known for a few years passed away last week. I was off on the day it happened and so I learned about it fourth hand and not altogether certain how much I’m conveying is actually the truth. 

So, anyway this supervisor was well known and well liked by his coworkers and those under him. He appeared laid back and quite at ease with himself, exuding self-confidence.  I suspected that he was probably gay because that’s how he came across to me and everyone else, an effeminate approach to life in attitude and deed. 

Now, according to the person who told me what allegedly happened. He was sitting at his desk and closed his eyes. According to him, the supervisor had lost his kidney function resulting in renal failure. As I said, this is fourth hand information and I’m not the dependable narrator I like to be especially in the next paragraph because I am only hypothesizing here. 

He always, especially in the few months I ran into him as sickly, from what I can’t say with accuracy. I’m assuming this issue, if he indeed was gay, could be HIV, which if he was taking the prescribed medication has serious side effects that includes kidney function issues. 

For the most part, if a person does test positive for HIV, most modern prescribed medications are safe to use that help those infected lead healthy long-term lives. Just like with my dad though, when whatever ails you begin to affect kidneys and liver, your time above ground is limited no matter what medications out there can help alleviate the symptoms. 

My dad didn’t have HIV but type one diabetes and insulin that helped keep his blood sugar stable, also had really bad side effects. These side effects also included renal and liver disfunction resulting in death. 

“An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure,” paraphrasing Ben Franklin, though he was referring to fire prevention in home in Colonial Philadelphia, but I believe it applies here as well. Proper diet and protected sexual practices go a long way to not taking pharmaceuticals in the first place. 

Is it Real of Figment of Imagination

Lately, since I had my two novellas presented at the Los Angeles Times Book Fair, I received emails from individuals who represented publishing houses, and not just some small-time press or self-publishing printing outfit, but Random House and Gray Wolf Press. 

Ten years ago, I would be jumping for joy and thinking I just struck gold. Ten years ago, I was more trusting and less skeptical of these emails because everything looked so authentic. That was then and this is ten years later, and a lot has happened at that time. 

To start with bad players are everywhere doing everything they can to swindle you or me into believing that what I have is pure gold and all I have to do is say yes, and I will get a double serving of American pie. 

Secondly I am using AI to summarize these emails to verify their authenticity. The person from Gray Wolf, for example, used her personal AOL address rather than a hyperlinked email company address. That’s a red flag. After submitting to these two people my keen interest in more information from them, they never replied, which says a lot about how scrupulous they must be. 

Finally, I’m much more skeptical now. I don’t see things with wide eyed wonder and think that what I have is worth more than the book’s price on the bar code or ISPN. I’ve learned my mistakes from my past and don’t just say yes anymore. 

While I appreciate all he latest attention poured into my two books, I definitely don’t need to be swindled out of money or jilted by false platitudes of what an enjoyable book(s) I have written. 

A Man on the Cross

Trust me, I’m not trying to be blasphemous. But many years ago, back in the eighties my BFF sat upon a cross that overlooked Flat top, a hill in the middle of West Richland. You can still see pretty much anywhere in the greater Tri Cities area; the cross not so much. 

There was a time in our younger days that we all were a bit too loose with our morals and let stuff happen that of course we can laugh at now that we are older and more or less wiser. Greg was my BFF in 1981. I don’t remember the particulars, but he came to live with us for a time. 

Us, I mean my parents and sisters as well as myself. He and I lived in the unfinished garage. At least it was insulated. I used him as a sounding board for the “great American novel” I was busy writing. Obviously, it was more of a futile effort at a crude first draft of high school kids learning to live in a post-nuclear war. The fact that Tri-Cities was within spitting distance of the Hanford Nuclear reservation, was key to the plot’s premise. 

Anyway, we both eventually found work doing scavenging work for Frank, a person I characterized in my later books working the landfill and doing any other jobs that needed physical labor. 

In the evenings we drove a recently bought Ford Galaxy 500 up to Flat top and would smoke pot and talk about nothing in particular, stoner issues of the time that seemed important to discuss, but most likely wasn’t important at all. 

Greg was taller and most likely stronger than me, but I knew I could handle anything thrown at me. He looked up at the cross, the February moon illuminating it and it looked cool in our inebriated conditions. 

“Jerry, ever tried getting on that cross?” 

“No, I can’t say as I have,” I replied. I admired the cross a bit longer and the pulled another toke from the pipe he offered me. 

“Want to go ahead and do it?” 

“Do what?” I laughed. 

“Climb up that cross and sit on it,” he replied simply. 

“Oh, I don’t know. If either of us slips, it is Gonnerville. You won’t stop until your bust-up body is at the bottom of this hill. It’s like three hundred feet down, Greg.” 

“Oh, you are just a woos,” Greg chastised me, as though insulting my manhood would make a hill of beans difference. I always considered myself well-grounded and never took unnecessary risks when it came to my well-being. Call it a deep seated but healthy fear of pain. “Come on Jerry. We ain’t gonna fall off!” 

“You go first and you help me get up and I’ll do it.” 

“Fine,” he answered as he opened the passenger side door and got out. I grudgingly followed suit and he being taller, over six feet, he had no trouble hoisting himself up and looked out over the Tri-Cities at night in 1981. “Okay, Jerry your turn.” He lowered his right arm for me to grasp and up I went, stumbling and doing my level best not to look at the endless darkness below me. 

After I was up and settled, Greg loaded his pipe, flipped the disposable lighter and went ahead to smoke on the cross. He passed it to me and I followed suit. “I hope we don’t get too buzzed Greg it’s a hell of a sudden drop before we hit terra firma.” 

Co-Depending with Ernie

Long ago when was just starting my life as an apprentice alcoholic, I became friends with my boss, a cook at the Elks Lodge in West Richland.  I remember his first name, Ernie, but not his last; not that it matters.  Suffice to say he was the journeyman alcoholic that I strived to  become. 

Mother gave me a job hint after returning home from school.  I was a full time college student at Columbia Basin College and needed gas money to get me back and forth in  my ’73 Gremlin.  A cook they recently hired at the Elks Lodge needed a dishwasher and prep cook.  I grudgingly went to the Elks lodge that overlooked their private golf course at the time.  The lodge later sold the course and swimming pool to the city.  At any rate, I met Ernie as he was mixing up the house dressing.  My first impression as I saw his wry smile behind a well trimmed salt and pepper beard, styled haircut and big gut was how similar he appeared to Kenny Rodgers. Our interview consisted of him asking me three questions: You ever washed dishes before? Can you prep? And do you like to drink? 

I replied yes to all three and he said, “You’re hired, now go and get me some more mayonnaise for the dressing.” 

It was purely business at first, and only later did I realized how far gone his alcoholism had progressed.  I went to work after classes and did my stint until I finished the last load of dishes and mopped the floor.  He cleaned up long before and sat at the corner of a bar nursing a Jack Daniels and coke.   

“You want something before you go,” he would ask me. 

Then, I was more responsible; if I drove I would ask for a soda, and if I walked I would sit at the bar and order a draft Bud.   

Later on, he bought himself a ’70 Coupe Deville and I became his designated driver, going to any number of bars in the greater Tri Cities area.  He would get himself plowed as I sat and drank my soda pop.  He would also reward my efforts by buying my weed for me.   It was a great relationship until he lost his job at the restaurant on night. 

It all started innocently enough, it was Mexican night, and we were on our way to the Elks Lodge, when he suddenly wanted to “grease his wheels” before getting there and we stopped at the bowling alley in Richland, called Atomic Lanes. 

No sooner had we sat down, than a group of ladies from Portland showed up to have couple.  He began flirting with them and soon he had one wrapped around his finger and I, being the sober driver noticed it was getting extremely close to getting started.  “Ernie, we need to go.” 

“Go ahead and start without me.  Come back later and pick me up,” he told me in his usual whiskey and cigarette rasping voice. 

“But Ernie, it’s Mexican night and they’ll be expecting you.” 

“Shit, everything you need to get started is in the freezer.  Just pull it out and get everything started.  Come back later and pick me up.  Now Scram!” 

I felt pissed, but that wasn’t the first time he pissed me off as I left the lounge, hearing a smattering of bowling pins explode as someone’s ball made contact.  No the first time was a few weeks before when he screwed up a meal at a wedding reception and the father of the bride or groom got into his face and threatened to beat the crap out of him and sue the Lodge.  In that little foray, he was gone and finally showed up just after the dinners were sent out, and the cook had no idea what exactly was being served and had to fly off the seat of his pants.  Somehow he got it wrong. 

After the confrontation had settled, the cook quit throwing his apron at Ernie.   

I went back to the dish pit doing dishes in silence, stewing in rage and embarrassment. 

Ernie came up to me and said, “Go ahead and clean up, I’ll be back later to help you finish up.” 

“Whatever, Ernie,” I replied as I glared back at him. 

“Don’t tell me you’re mad too.” 

“Yeah I am,” I said and went back to pre-rinsing  a rack of plates.  I saw him leave the kitchen, presumably going to the bar and having another one. 

Back to this night, it appeared we were headed in the same unfortunate circumstance as then and I felt the same rage beginning to approach.  He didn’t get it.  To him this was just another job to work at and get paid for with the added fringe benefit of a bar to drink in. For me, the Elks Lodge was more because people I knew, my parents’ friends went there on a regular basis and I carried aspirations of someday joining too.  He was a liability and an embarrassment for me.  The sooner I cut the cord the better, I thought. 

As soon as I arrived, the place was packed with lodge members wanting to know where Ernie was and his wife; yes he was married and had wonderful woman who had the patience of a saint, but not tonight. 

“Where’s Ernie,” was the first question that came out of her mouth as I ran like a chicken with its head cut off getting stainless steel containers full of refried beans, ground taco, meat and cheese out from the freezer and onto the flat range top.  That too was cold and I had to max the burners to get everything going. 

“I left him at the bowling alley,” I replied, tired of lying for him. 

“Really,” she replied as fire spit out from her eyes. 

Just then Mark, a cook who replaced the one who quit came in looking for Ernie.  “I need some money.  That check he gave me bounced.” 

A thought came to me at that moment.  “Look Mark, it’s taco night, I’m totally out of sorts here.  Ernie is at the bowling alley.  Do me a favor and get this stuff started.  I’m going to get him, even if I have to drag him out kicking and screaming.” 

I think he felt more sorry for me than mad at Ernie and agreed, as he threw on an apron and got started. 

“Go and get him,” his wife told me under no-uncertain-terms. 

Ten minutes later, I arrived at the bowling alley and saw Ernie carrying on a lively conversation with a red head and a brunette.   He was seated between the two. 

“Ernie we got to go now,” I stated to him.   

“Oh, your back.  I got this one for you.  We’re going over to the Hanford House to party there,” Ernie stated his eyes swimming in booze and lust. 

“Your wife sent me to get you back.  The place is full and thankfully, Mark showed to get the dinner going while I   come back to get  you.” 

That is when the two ladies excused themselves saying  “Goodbye Ernie,” as they left us.  Ernie appeared to have sobered up a bit then and got up, throwing on his cowboy hat and coat, and heading toward the door.  Not a word was exchanged as we drove back to the Elks Lodge. 

The remaining guests congratulated Mark on a fine dinner as they purposefully ignored Ernie who spoke pleasantries to them as they left the bar. 

“I thought you told me this place was packed,” Ernie said in disappointment to me. 

“It was,” his wife stated upon seeing us.   “They couldn’t wait all night for their dinners and went elsewhere.  Ernie, how could you?” 

He didn’t seem to have an answer as I snuck into the kitchen, taking off my coat and going into the dish pit as I donned my apron.  I started washing dishes when I suddenly heard dishes shattering. 

“What the hell are you doing?” I heard Ernie yell at someone who I could only assume was his wife. 

“You lying son of a bitch,” I heard her scream.  “Go and fine some place else to sleep.  You’re out of my place.” 

Later that night, I drove him to a lodge friend’s trailer.  He stayed there and they divorced.   

After the end of the year, of 1982, he and I separated too.  I didn’t feel like being  caught up in his downward spiral. 

He admitted to me some time before all of this happened that he was committed to a Schick rehabilitation facility by his first wife; this last one was his second.  He said he spent two days there and demanded to be released. 

As I later discovered myself, one cannot be forced to quit drinking.  For me, rock bottom was a stroke that left my left side of my body partially paralyzed and a decision to become sober for the rest of my life.  I don’t know if Ernie found the bottom of the bottle.  I pray that he did and changed his life to one of sobriety.  I feared though that  he ended up  drinking himself to death. 

Natural Pastime

Oh, the seventies growing up, so much to do and a teenager like me enjoying every moment of it. There were the bicycle rides to Lost Lake, a shallow pond within an oasis of trees, mostly Alder and Russian Olive. Not far from there was the old Tri-City Raceway, a quarter mile tri-oval track for wannabe stock car drivers. Outside Benton City was the POW camp, now just a dozen or so cement slabs where German prisoners of war were housed, and where me and my friends went to learn how to drink keggar beer, most likely Lucky Lager, and got sick. 

And finally, the ultimate rite of teenage passage, the unboat race held this time of year on the Yakima River when the spring runoff made the river and the Horn Rapids Dam most enjoyable. Unboats are a category of floatation devices that aren’t watercraft. Everything else was fair game: innertubes aligned and tied together with ropes or twine, rubberized rafts, homemade rafts like Jim and Huck Finn used to go down the Mississippi, a bathtub, and anything else one’s imagination desires. 

My first experience of this “race,” was when we came visiting Dad in 1971 before moving there permanently. He lived in a one-bedroom apartment that was above the Yakima River in West Richland. At that time that town had barely over a thousand residents. In five months, which will increase by five.  

But anyway, the race that we were more curious about than devoted fans of. Like you, I had no idea because I’ve never heard of it. It was a local thing apparently and not really organized in any official capacity. Later on, I hypothesized with my equally inebriated friends that this race was probably given birth to and christened at a similar keggar at the POW camp where we were partying.  

It fitted into a typical late sixties, early seventies great ideas that may have taken hold except the original organizers apparently sobered up by 1980 and that event never happened again. Considering the clear and obvious danger involved, not to mention most of these participants were probably feeling no pain when they launched their unboat craft from the boat launch just down river from the POW camp, down river and over Horn Rapids Dam. After that, the race itself was more of a party that amounted to shirtless young men or teenage boys frolicking on their tubes or rafts, teenaged girls wearing bikinis or bras with Daisy Duke shorts or halter tops. All had various long hair styles of the time. Beer and other alcoholic beverages passed freely amongst friends as well as those funny cigarettes. 

Anyway, we watch this “race” appear by where Dad’s apartment was and we hooted and hollered with the crews on their Unboats. At least one or two of these participants mooned us with their white cheeks proudly displayed. Mom wasn’t fast enough to shield my seven-year-old-sister’s eyes from that. “Mom, he’s showing his butt,” she exclaimed between giggles. I saw a couple teenager girls pull their t-shirts up from another raft showing young and perky breasts that I had never seen before. Of course, Dad just winked at me and grinned. 

The other night in between sleeps and fully awake I recalled that time and wondered if such an event still existed. Sadly, as I mentioned earlier, 1979 was the last year this Regala occurred not to be repeated ever again. I’m sure now that it’s been over fifty years since that first race, those original stoners at the POW camp are now retired, on walkers and gambling away their children’s inheritances at the local tribal casino if they aren’t already pushing daisies at the local cemetery. 

Book Two of Search for Justice is Live

Four Seasons Book Two: Search for Justice,” is live and available for you my loyal readers to buy and read.

“Prominent Books Edge” has also agreed to publish book three called “Evil That Men Do.” It will soon be live in the fall. All of this cannot be possible without the support of you my readers.”

Here are the Amazon links:
Paperback: A Search for Justice: Four Seasons Book Two
eBook: A Search for Justice: Four Seasons Book Two

Here are the ISBNs for the books. You can use the ISBNs to search for a book on Amazon as it’s a unique code that quickly finds the exact version without confusion from similar titles or editions.

Paperback: 9798896722878
eBook: 9798896722885

The Mind

Science geek here again. This time I’m considering the mind, brain generally, and our perceptions of what we perceive as reality. I’m of an opinion that though everyone might see the same thing, how each individual perceives what he sees are as different as night and day. 

The Nova episode that I watched the other night is as telling of what each of us view as real or fake. It’s why magicians are still performing their acts of illusion, or delusion if you will, and wowing the audiences even in this day and age of skepticism.  

Our brains are programmed by our environment, parents, friends, and the intangibles such as mutations. Whatever one person might view in a certain situation including cataclysmic events and not sense they perceive the same thing. Instead, any traumatic event will invariable result in many people telling a vastly different story based on their past experiences, when and how they were raised and the intangibles of their own life experience. 

I’m a living example of my own trauma when I suffered a stroke in 2002. Many things on my brain that wasn’t affected is as poignant as what I lost. I lost some physical traits such as use of my left arm hand and fingers. I’m walking with a noticeable limp, but most of my memories are still there, my speech didn’t change—I was born with a cleft lip and pallet that speech therapy more or less fixed—still have my hearing and eyesight because those areas of the brain were not affected by the stroke I had. But, I’m noticing other changes that aren’t physical but mental. 

Like that minor, Phineus Gage, I noticed changes in my personality that weren’t apparent 23 years ago. I tended to be even keeled with a mild temperament. I was often taken advantage because I wanted to be accepted into whatever clique I wanted to befriend. It also explained my affinity for heavy drinking in my younger years, and probably why many people in higher positions of power didn’t see me as leadership material. 

Since my stroke, my personality has shifted more toward being impatient and temperamental toward certain people, and being terribly angry at myself. I have been warned numerous times that this behavior is unacceptable at work. When I saw that on Nova last night, how Mr. Gage’s own behavior issues were laid out, it made sense that the stroke I had also caused personality traits that are part of that portion of my brain happened near the frontal cortex and on my right side. 

Of course, with age, one has to put that into perspective how our personalities also change as well as our genes and how one was raised, be it a single parent relationship or even an abusive history that goes back many generations. 

As I have said before I have grown to appreciate Nova and other science programs more because I like learning new things about myself and the world around me. I hope we all can appreciate how we see the world through another lens and respect those differences, and embrace everyone’s perspectives and coexist.