A Lot Has Happened

I’m home in my fifth wheel trailer and watching Sunday Night Football as Elsa my Amazon makes a mess on the living room carpet turning a cardboard box into shredded paper. The news has been dismal as is normal even though it’s the Holiday season of Peace on Earth and goodwill toward Man.

A lot has happened since I returned from my trip to Tennessee, not least of which is the inevitable possibility as reported by The New York Times, the return of Donald Trump to the white House, even though criminal indictments still loom large. It amazes me how so many people are taken in by this man. I would have thought by now how much of a phony he is would be obvious to everyone. Yet as a man in Iowa told an NBC reporter, Trump is their salvation, or words to that effect.

It’s no secret who Putin wants to be elected President next year. He would probably give Trump lessons on how to become a dictator. It would make his life so much easier that’s for sure. He would love to see Trump abandon NATO, let Ukraine wither and die like an apple on a tree in mid-November, and allow him free reign over Europe.

At any rate, I’m sitting here watching the Ravens and Jaguars and informing you my loyal readers that I have a trailer coming out soon to promote I Albert Peabody, Confessions of a Serial Killer.  The Living Word the marketing company responsible for my review of A Man’s Passion convinced me to do this project. As I write I’m in a bit of a quandary because I’m on a strict budget and can’t throw money at everyone who thinks they can market my books. So far, I haven’t received that support I so desperately want so that I can be successful.

Next Saturday I’m driving to Southeast Idaho at a town called Burley where I’m visiting my other sister Cathy and her husband Nick. Because both sisters live so far from Spokane, I had to make compromises, so both are pacified. I’m sure they’ll return the favor next year. I’m still undecided on my vacation plans for next year.

So, my loyal readers I’m once again wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year.

Roads From Tennessee: Final Day

I gave Terry, Greg’s father-in-law, two of my self-published books from the Four Seasons Series, Search for Justice, and Edge of Darkness.

He appeared happy and thanked me. I then gave Terry, Greg’s wife a hug and went to the pickup, threw my suitcase and laptop inside and we were off to Memphis to fly back to Spokane. The road trip back was uneventful, which I expected nothing less. After all, we are both AARP members and the 1970s are in our rearview mirror.

WE discussed all the problems of this country but honestly didn’t have a clue about solving it. His ideas and mine were on different paths. Perhaps maybe someone could find a way to bridge those paths but not today. Between driving me to the airport and talking politics Greg tried to get the Bluetooth working on the infotainment system of his Titan. “I can’t help you, bro. The Bluetooth on my Charger has never worked,” I told him as we crossed the Tennessee River and found ourselves in Mississippi heading north.

“It worked fine earlier,” he complained as I left myself a reminder not to buy a Nissan Titan in the near or distant future. It seemed that since I came along, there have been minor tics or bugs that has plagued this vehicle the last seven days. Yesterday, it was some weird thing going on with the ring tones from his phone that found itself playing on the speakers of his truck; now this.

We listened to the radio stations instead, mostly country though Greg eventually found a classic rock station that began playing Steely Dan. I didn’t recall the song. We started singing off key to the lyrics and then I said, “Greg, didn’t you tell me you don’t like jazz? Because Steely Dan’s entire reason for being is their jazz influence.”

“I don’t like certain aspects of jazz,” he explained to me patiently. “I also don’t care for the Rolling Stones because I can’t stand to look at Mick Jagger and those big lips of his, but I like their music.”

“Or Stephen Tyler of Aero Smith?” I asked.

“Exactly!” Greg exclaimed as a Led Zepplin song came on.

“This station’s playing some pretty righteous music, Greg.”

“Yeah, I’ll have to add this station to the presets.”

Like heading down, going back the traffic was moderate but became heavier the further north we went. A “Welcome to Tennessee” sign appeared and then another sign showed fifty miles to Memphis. As I mentioned earlier the climate here was very agreeable, seeming like a mildly hot summer’s in Spokane say in late August or early September. But, like I told Greg, the politics here is not my cup of tea. My pro-choice, pro LBGQ, pro-government views don’t sit well here or in my neck of the woods. As I wrote earlier, I had to hold my tongue many times because my views were in conflict with others including my own family.

Eventually Greg turned off one highway to another, an expressway leading into Memphis. Along the way we came on an accident with a small car, expensive looking SUV, and a semi. The semi won. The wreckage was widespread. The SUV was totaled while the truck sustained minor damage to its bumper, grill and left front quarter panel. “Looks like the SUV didn’t want to yield the right of way to that trucker,” I observed.

“You wouldn’t believe how many idiots out there have no respect for us truckers, thinking we can just back off or break for them when they pull in front of you. We got at least twenty thousand pounds sitting behind us as we’re driving on these highways. And they expect us to just slow down?” He asked incredulously. “It doesn’t work that way, as that idiot found out.”

He stopped at the Lowes to pick up a part for his trailer. I can’t remember what it was, but he left me in the truck while he went and picked up the part. Ten minutes later we were back on a back road and found our way via the navigator on his truck’s infotainment system.

We made it to the airport, and I noticed how big it was, generally a little smaller then Spokane’s, though we got federal funding from that infrastructure law Congress passed and plans for expanding were in the works.

He stopped in front of the Delta terminal. I got out and stretched, while he got my luggage and then for whatever reason I got emotional and hugged him fiercely hiding my face in his shoulder.

“I love you man,” I choked out.

“Shit, Jerry, stop it! I love you too. You going to get me to bawling too.” We disengaged and I wiped the tears from my cheeks and walked inside. Greg made it to his truck and got in.

After the ritual screening at the TSA site, I waited an hour for my next flight to Minneapolis. By the time we reached Minneapolis it was dark, and I saw various sports complexes where alit football fields made their presence known though I had no idea where teams they represented. None seemed big enough for the Vikings. I figured high school and possibly junior colleges were the culprits.

After we landed, not wanting to miss my flight here, I asked one of those airport service workers who drove a cart for a lift to the concourse I needed to go to, which was a very long distance away and I only had fifteen minutes to make my next flight. Ironically, the flight crew had come on another flight and were themselves late by the better part of twenty minutes. Somehow it all came together, and I was homeward bound, heading westward over the Dakotas and Montana, before finally arriving in Spokane a little before eleven that night.

I’ll see about making a return trip in a year or two. Today, I’m just grateful for this opportunity.

Roads From Tennessee: Day 6

Day 6

It’s a Baptist church in Corinth, Mississippi. It’s a large building that Greg informed me could hold well over a thousand worshippers. We parked nearby and Terry got onto a wheelchair that Greg provided her from the back area of the Kia SUV she had bought a while back.

We walked in through the greeting area that already had a number of people congregating and chattering among themselves about the weather and local happenings that I half heard as we meandered about the flock. Greg introduced me to the Sunday School teacher who would guide us through a lesson from the Bible. Later, I was to meet Brother Jim, who I was told was the pastor here. I didn’t recall the Sunday school teacher’s name, Brother Bill maybe? At any rate he was a tall gentleman with friendly smile. Greg then introduced me to Sister Agnes who was all a flutter that I was from Washington State.

“I lived in Olympia for a spell,” she told me in her most eloquent Mississippi drawl.

“I always lived on the east side of the state. I think Greg calls it the ‘right’ side of the state, though I don’t share many of their views,” I replied.

“He’s a democrat,” Greg pointed out as if this fact alone had me destined to the gates of hell.

“Oh, you are one of them,” she accused in a chipper laugh that seemed to lighten the mood a bit. “I went up there when my husband was stationed at Fort Lewis years and years ago. After he passed away, I came back here to my home. I just missed everything so. I did enjoy the forests and the pleasant weather y’all have up there in the spring and fall. Summers aren’t so bad neither.”

As luck would have it, I ended up sitting next to her in the Sunday School class on folding cushioned chairs. It’s funny but the last time I was in a Sunday school class was well before smartphone technology. Where back then one brought the Holy Bible with him or her, now it was a tablet or smartphone that everyone possessed. I used to be able to gauge a person’s Bible reading skills by the dog ears on the Bible’s pages as they were flipped through to find that certain verse, chapter, or book that had the most compelling argument to their belief. Now I had no such advantage.

I decided not to bring my cell phone with me, figuring I didn’t need it. But as it turned out, I felt a bit lost by not bringing it because the parishioners in this class effortlessly Googled the passage we were to study, and I felt a bit overwhelmed by their abilities. Do they actually offer smartphone classes for these people? Obviously, they’re a lot smarter than I gave them credit for.

By the same token, I’m sure I impressed them with the limited Biblical knowledge I possessed. The discussion delved into the Phoenician woman whose daughter was possessed by a demon and begged Jesus to exorcise it as in Mark 7:25-30. There were lessons learned that obviously could be applied in today’s trials, not least of importance was the newly opened conflict in Gaza between Israel and Hamas.

After that we went to the sanctuary and listened to music from their choir and then a sermon from Brother Jim. He was altogether a much different minister than the last Baptist preacher I was forced to listen to when I visited my grandma in Childress, Texas in 1978. He was about forgiveness and caring, whereas the one I listened to in Texas was about damnation and fire and brimstone, going to hell unless I repented and sought salvation.

I felt moved by his sermon, though for the life of me I can’t now remember what he said. I looked about the large gallery of this church with its cathedral ceilings and balconies where the choir sat, and behind me more worshippers who appeared as interested in the message as I was. Greg sat next to me, his eyes closed, obviously deep in prayer or meditation.

The service ended after about an hour and we all moved out to the greeting area where Brother Jim stood ramrod straight, a genuine smile on his weathered face, his white hair neatly combed. Greg introduced us and I shook his hand with a firm grip. “A very fine sermon sir,” I complimented him before releasing my hand from his. He then handed me a coffee mug with some other swag thanking me for coming.

“It’s a pleasure meeting you. Brother Greg and Sister Terry have told me much about you.” I thanked him and left the building to get some much-needed fresh air.

After we arrived home Greg and I grabbed his guns and we went out to a back portion of the ten-acre property his father-in-law, Terry still owned and did some familiarization of shooting paper targets with handguns. He had an AR-15 he recently purchased, but it wasn’t sighted in and shot well right and up from the target he aimed for. It was getting dark by then and we made haste to call it a day.

Tomorrow, I go home back to Spokane.

Roads From Tennessee

To start with, people in Tennessee talk funny. It’s also contagious. I had a heck of a time returning back to my normal accent. It must’ve been three days before I stopped combining you and all. My bestie had wanted, no begged me to go and visit his place down in Savannah, a mostly rural community. I never got what the population was. According to Bing here the population of Savannah, Tennessee is 7,224. As I’ll explain to you later, this community has more history to it than the fact it’s a small backwater by the Tennessee River.

Tuesday afternoon I left Spokane on a Delta flight bound to Atlanta. I arrived around 7:30 and was on the Delta concourse that was an airport all itself. I vaguely remembered coming through Atlanta when I left Fort Jackson after my initial training after joining the National Guard. Apparently, this airport grew exponentially since.

I went straight to the boarding area and waited for the 10:45pm flight, passing my time by listening to my music on my cellphone with noise cancelling headphones and texting Greg that I was waiting to board my next flight. If the name appears familiar, I also did a blog two years ago for his departed mother’s funeral. We have known each other since I was nine and he was six years old.

Something came up on the alert board informing us heading ton Memphis that the flight was delayed. I thought nothing of it and continued texting my friend letting him know there was some sort of delay. I continued listening to my music. Another flight to Cincinnati came up and those people left. It was now after eleven. I was alone. Everybody had gone. What the heck?

I texted Greg and told him the situation. He called back. “What do you mean you missed your flight?”

“I don’t know. I thought the delay just meant they were holed up and would arrive shortly before taking off to Memphis. But they ended up at another part of the airport. I guess I’m getting a hotel room tonight and I’ll see you in the morning.”

I wasn’t the only one who missed this flight. Another man from Pensacola, Florida sat in one of those wheelchairs the airport provides. Not knowing where I was going, I took this porter’s invitation and also sat in an offered wheelchair, and he pushed us both out to where the airport shuttles going to other hotels.

After a time, a long, long time, we finally had a van shuttle us to the hotel the airline supported us. I planned to give the driver a tip for his efforts, assuming that this shuttle ride was also on Delta’s dime. “That’s $25 please,” the young Arabic looking man told me. I was more than a little taken aback as I handed him a twenty-dollar bill to go with the five dollars I just handed him to go basically around the block.

I was too tired to argue what I felt certain was an error on his part and grabbed my briefcase that was big enough to handle my toiletries as well as my laptop, headphones, and cell phone. I got my complementary room and went to bed after taking a quick shower. I checked my watch, which I still had on PDT that showed 11:30. I set the alarm on my phone for five am.

Day 2

I heard the classical music piece chime on my cell phone. It was dark and early. My initial reaction was what the heck? It’s not Thursday! But then I remembered. I now see my surroundings of the hotel room Delta supplied me because of a miss up on the schedule. Now I’m more or less awake looking at the now alit room and am getting dressed, back into the clothes I came with since my suitcase is presently at the Memphis Airport waiting for me to claim it.

I briefly looked over the boarding pass for the plane that leaves at seven. I have two hours, so I need to move with haste. There was mention of a rail that ran from here to the airport. I thought I caught a glimpse of it last night when that shuttle driver dropped me and that Floridian here.

I left the room bringing with me the key card so that I could drop it off when I go pass the front desk.

The concierge, a bald-headed African American man, much taller, bigger, and younger than me greeted me. He was the same individual who checked me in last night, greeted me with a welcoming smile.

“Good morning, sir. Did you sleep well?”

“It was alright,” I replied vaguely. “I understood there’s a tram that I can take to the airport?”

“Yes, just walk outside there and turn right and go to that building there, take the elevator and it should be here shortly. It runs around every three minutes or so.”

“I have a question.”

“Go ahead. I hope that I have an answer for you, sir.”

“The shutter that dropped me here. Is it a complimentary or private?”

“Well usually it’s complimentary but there are private shuttle vans too.”

“The driver charged me twenty-five dollars.”

“He wasn’t supposed to,” he told me as the smile drained from his face and an angry expression surfaced. “I’ll find out for you…”

“It’s not that important. He may well have been a private service. I didn’t see any markings to indicate he represented a hotel chain.”

“As you wish, sir. Have a good day and safe trip.”

“Thanks,” I replied as I followed him outside, so he pointed me in the right direction. Just as we got outside. I noticed a tram moving quickly through the windows of the second floor of the terminal and headed toward that building.

After I got off the elevator I went to a platform where the next tram was due to arrive. A moment later it sped to a stop as some passengers exited and me and a dozen others boarded. It was a narrow, tubular shaped machine with a bench on either end of the car and vertical grab bars for people to latch onto as the tram sped rapidly down a rail and stopped at the destination, the boarding and TSA inspection area. We all got off and went to the TSA zone where the ritual screening took place.

After that we boarded another tram that took us to the designated boarding terminal. After we got off from there it was a long walk to the boarding zone. As I mentioned earlier this airport had grown by leaps and bounds. It appeared almost like a miniature city itself. Most notably was the stores, shops, and restaurants that catered to the passengers who needed to wait for their next flight. When I arrived at my boarding zone I noticed a sports bar, but the closet Starbucks was a good three hundred yards behind me. I hoped this place would have coffee available because I didn’t want to go back, get in a long line, and risk missing this next flight too.

The African American bartender smiled brightly and greeted me, “Good morning. WE aren’t serving food right now.”

“That’s alright. I just need a cup of coffee.”

“For here or to go?”

“To go please,” I replied as I stood next to the bar with shiny wood surface. I couldn’t tell if it was really wood or that imitation stuff. I figured it was imitation as I waited for what seemed like an exceptionally long time for her to get me a cup of coffee from the back area where I assumed was their pantry and/or kitchen.

Eventually she popped out with Styrofoam cup with secured plastic lid on top. “Here you go sir, which will be eight dollars please.” I handed her my last two five-dollar bills and told to keep the change. “Why thank you sir. Have a pleasant day.”

“You too,” I replied as I left this bar and went across to where I was scheduled to take the next outbound flight to Memphis. I checked my watch and saw I still had an hour to wait. I opened my laptop and began reading over one of my manuscripts. Though I was tempted to play my music, I realized from last night such a thing wasn’t a good idea since that’s what got me into trouble to begin with. So, I drank my coffee, read my story, and waited for my flight.

I finally heard the Delta Agent announced over the PA that my flight was starting to board. I waited for my turn that I figured was the economy class, though later I learned I could have gone first as a disabled person. I kept that information handy for my return trip back to Spokane.

The flight was mostly a quick hop from Atlanta to Memphis. I don’t think it lasted more than an hour before we landed and deplaned. I walked several more hundreds of yards to the baggage claim where Greg waited for me.

“Well, it’s about time you showed up,” he ribbed me with his familiar smile. His beard had grown out again and he reminded me of an old hillbilly without the floppy, holey hat, and double-barreled shotgun.

“Yeah, remind me again to elect earlier flights out of Spokane.” We walked together to the baggage claim office where he knew which suitcase was mine but because of security protocols and me being too tired to even bother, elected to wait until now to grab my suitcase and roll it out the airport.

“I decided to sleep in the parking garage. I don’t recommend doing that again, my back is killing me right now,” Greg told me as we went outside and breathed in the Memphis air. It wasn’t exactly fresh, but it wasn’t bad either. After a bit we found his truck, a Nisson Titan he had just bought the week before. “Well, what do you want to do next?”

“Eat,” I replied, frankly. “I haven’t eaten since last night.”

“Me neither. Anyplace in particular?”

“No.”

He went to his I-phone and found a nearby IHOPS. “IHOPS it is then.” He pushed the ignition button and shifted the truck into gear, and we left the airport, heading to a nearby restaurant that specialized in breakfast.

Breakfast seemed pleasant. I paid for it since it was my fault this happened in the first place. Then, he hit the freeway leaving Memphis and going to Savannah, Tennessee.

Greg’s a good driver. He kind of has to be since this is what he does for a living. Like my passion or calling is writing, his is driving eighteen wheelers day in and day out and dealing with people on the highway who most likely have no business driving. The highway was clear and dry, and the sun was out shiny and bright, with moderate traffic flow. We discussed the fiasco from last night and the latest work I’ve done on my latest project. He then enlightened me on the character I was using, Nate Turner.

“You know there’s another called Ned Turner, right?” He asked me.

“No, not that I’m aware of,” I replied. With one hand on the wheel, he fumbled with Google on his I-phone, he then told Google,

“Ned Turner.”

I read the feed of the notorious Ned Turner, a Tory of the American Revolution who was part of a group that called themselves the old Ninety-six District that attacked rebel families in rural South Carolina. “No, not that. This is much later you know just before, during and after the Civil War,” I told Greg. “And it’s not about Nat Turner neither. He led a slave rebellion in Virginia around that same time.”

“Well, then what’s your book going to be about then?”

“Okay, Nate Turner is a free Black man who eventually becomes a rancher in Eastern Montana and is elected sheriff. One night he gets ambushed and finds himself in Heaven preparing to go in through the purely gates. But he instead talks St. Peter into letting him relive his life as he stands off to the side where he eventually sees his would-be murderer.”

“Oh, well I might be interested in that then. That sounds really interesting. And you say he’s in the Civil War?”

“Yes, there was an actual-colored regiment that fought in a number of battles in Kentucky, Virginia and even here in Tennessee,” I explained. “It was called the Fifth Colored Cavalry Regiment.”

“We’ll have to go to the Shiloe Battlefield Memorial then.”

For reasons that belie my own geographical ignorance, I assumed the Shiloe battlefield was in Mississippi. “Sure,” I told Greg, figuring we would be doing a long road trip as we were doing today.

“You may not know this, or notice this, but we are in Mississippi now, close to a town called Corinth.”

“No, I didn’t know or notice. I must’ve missed the ‘Welcome to Mississippi’ sign.”

“You did, but you were also busy reading about Ned Turner.” He then turned on some music from a Mongolian band called the HU. It sounded to me like a Klingon war chant before taking their Birds of Prey into combat. It was fascinating to say the least. “I listen to all kinds of music while I’m driving.”

The song he played loud and clear was “Wolf Totem.” “It has an interesting beat,” I told him.

“I don’t know what the hell they’re saying, but I like it,” Greg agreed.

In the meantime, I took note of Missiissppi. It is of course very Christian, Bible belt, conservative. I learned long ago from my own family, that I needed respect other peoples’ opinions that weren’t my own. I knew if anyone here shared my views, it was a voice muted as mine was. I didn’t dare assume that anyone here shared my left of center opinions. It was green and warm countryside that if I was outside rather than inside Greg’s truck, I could hear birds chirping or cawing and feel soft breezes blowing on my face.

Eventually we crossed into Tennessee after passing through Corinth, crossed the Tennessee River where one of the dams had created a lake that I didn’t catch the name of. Then after fifteen more minutes we were inside the town of Savannah.

Briefly, Savannah is a small, inviting town. It used to be a dry town of a dry county but now has alcohol available in stores. There are no bars though. Alcohol is served in restaurants as part of the meal, Greg explained to me as we meandered through the town streets to another smaller state highway that led to Warren Lane. His parents’ in law property was up the road and next door to his wife Terry’s aunt. Like me he lived in a fifth wheel trailer with her.

When I got out from his truck, he led me to the small cabin he had built, for me to reside in for my stay. He had the air conditioner running, which was fine for now, but as I told him, I wouldn’t need it tonight.

“Are you sure? It stays warm at night,” Greg warned me.

“I’m positive Greg.” WE returned to his trailer. Next was a small house that would eventually be his and Terry’s when her parents passed. His father-in-law, who also went by Terry, sat in a motorized wheelchair, more of a motorized scooter than wheelchair though. Some time ago, both legs were amputated. He appeared short, though of course he was sitting down, thin, and lean looking, he was an Army veteran who was in Vietnam. He didn’t volunteer his age, but I guessed him well into his eighties. I didn’t know why he had two prosthetics, but I didn’t ask either. Greg introduced us. We shook hands. He had a strong, confident grip.

In front of us was a mess of cut lumber and what appeared like the beginnings of a ramp to go along with a boardwalk that led from the house down to the driveway and over to Greg and Terry’s trailer. It was almost like Terry the father-in-law was waiting for us to arrive continue and where Greg left off. So, we both went to work cutting pieces to fit and slowly it came together, with the exception of a missing piece that would allow his scooter to move up the ramp from the ground to that second two by six board.

I suggested crosscutting an already cut remnant, but they didn’t have the radial arm saw that would’ve worked, making the correct cut. We tried using what was available, but it didn’t pan out as I imagined. “You’ll need to go to Lowes that has such a saw,” I said to Greg. He nodded.

Terry finally made it home. She and her daughter had gone to a doctor’s appointment in Corinth. She had an issue with her foot a while back and finally found a doctor there who listened to her and could give her the correct treatment. She explained later that the majority of doctors here were less than adequate.

“I told them my pain was in my foot,” she exclaimed with more than a hint of frustration. “’No, it’s your knee,’ they kept telling me. They were going to have me committed to a psychiatric facility, thinking I had lost my mind.” She got her Southern drawl back after nearly twenty years in Washington State.

She went up into the camper using a walker to maneuver herself along the deck and inside. Two dogs came out. One a silver-colored Scotty and a little dog that I assumed was a cross Pekinese and Cairn terrier too. I’m not sure. I generally place all such creatures in the ankle biting class of dog. The Scotty was a rescue that Greg found one winter’s morning in South Dakota. He was nearly froze to death, tied to a bumper of a car near a truck stop.

Greg and I eventually followed her inside and we sat to eat some chicken she cooked up on the air fryer she has. We spent a portion of the night chatting about their and my life events including our new grandchildren who came into the world, we watched TV. They were programs that they recorded and streamed. By nine o’clock Tennessee time, I went to bed in that little cabin. I thought I could get in and out of the cot they provided but soon realized my sixty-five-year-old body just wasn’t up to it; something Greg needed to rectify tomorrow.

Day Three

What’s a furry? I asked myself as I listened to Greg’s wife Terry talk with her daughter, Shylene, I believe it is though I could be wrong. She’s got six kids, with the oldest at eighteen and the youngest just born back in May. Anyway, Greg has a doctor’s appointment and I elected to stay here and do some writing and book editing, though conversation has captured my attention and feel I must become part of this.

“Have you heard of it Jerry?” Terry asked me.

“No, I’ve never heard of such a thing.”

“Oh, it’s the newest trend of those people,” her daughter stated in a matter-of-fact way. “These people dress up like a dog or cat or whatever and are demanding rights too just like them LBGTQ people. They want their own litter boxes.”

“I’m surprised you haven’t heard of them Jerry,” Terry told me in awe. “I thought everyone knew about them.”

“It’s what’s wrong with this country. Most people here at least are informed about these people,” Shylene said with disdain. I listened to her but wasn’t bought on what she was selling. I figured it was more about the culture wars between those who want to be who they were and wanting the same basic rights as everyone else and those who see these same people in some negative light to be ridiculed and degraded.

Just then Greg came home, a disappointed expression on his face. “I got the appointment all wrong. It’s in October not September. I missed my eye appointment though. That was yesterday. I just got a text today about that while I was on my way to the doctor.”

“Well, that sucks,” Terry said. “So, it’s next month then?”

“Yeah, and I don’t know where I’ll be next month,” Greg said in frustration. “Well, you want to go and check out Savannah, or stay here?”

“I suppose I can go with you. Where are we going?”

“Well, there’s the county museum. It has some interesting things on the Civil War you might like,” Greg said as he waited for me to put away my laptop and follow him out the door.

I smiled at Terry and her daughter as I got up to leave. “I’ll see everyone later then,” I told them. I followed Greg and closed the door behind me.

“Are you getting hungry?” Greg asked me as I was about ready to climb into the truck. “Wait I almost forgot. I need to help spread some fertilizer on Terry’s aunt’s garden. He climbed aboard a tractor and filled the front loader with darkish brown goop that I presumed was cow or horse manure and moved the tractor down to the neighbor’s place, Terry’s aunt.

I went along and followed him, walking down the green lawn to a nice-looking ranch styled house. A charming elderly woman came to supervise where she wanted Greg to deposit the fertilizer. She then came up to me, offering her hand.

“Hello, Greg has told me all about you. Would you like some sweet tea or water?”

“Water would be great,” I told her as she disappeared in through the back door of the attached garage and returned with a bottled water that she effortlessly opened.

“Here you are. I understand you write.”

“Yes, I authored a couple books.”

“That’s wonderful. It’s so nice Having Greg around. He’s been a great help for us and Terry’s parents.”

“Oh yeah, he’s always willing to lend a hand.”

Greg had completed the task he promised he’d do and drove the tractor back up the private road and parked the tractor.

“Oh, I need to give something to my sister. I got this golf cart; would you like a ride?”

“No, I’ll just wait here for Greg. I guess we’re going to lunch and then that museum.”

“Oh, that will be wonderful,” she exclaimed as she loaded freshly picked swash and zucchini into the cart and drove up the hill. Greg drove his truck down to meet me and I got in.

“She’s a neat lady. She talked a great deal about you, Greg.”

“I’m sure she did. Yeah, she likes that golf cart she bought.” He began driving down the road to the highway.

“Yeah, she offered me a ride in it thought I don’t know where I would’ve sat. That seat was loaded with those vegetables she picked.” We traveled down the highway and into Savannah where he stopped in front of a Ford dealership and texted someone on his phone. A moment later a big African American man came out smiling a cheezie grin that seemingly stretched from ear to ear.

“Greg my man. What’s going on with your fine self today?”

“Well, I wanted to show you the little crack I noticed on the windshield. It’s not much, but I had a similar experience a while back and the entire windshield cracked straight across and I had to pay to get it replaced,” Greg told his salesman. “Oh, and Tim, this is my brother from another mother, Jerry.”

“It’s a pleasure meeting you sir. Now, I’ll talk with Mr. Johnson and see what he says. I don’t recall seeing that crack when I sold it to you, Greg. But I might’ve just overlooked it.” He reached across and shook my hand.

“I also promised you dinner. Are you hungry?” Greg asked as Tim retreated back outside.

“Yeah, I could use a bite. Where were you planning to do this?”

“Hill’s.”

“Well, that’s great,” he replied as he opened the back door of the Titan truck and pulled himself inside. Greg shifted into gear, and we took off down the street and up another when we pulled into a parking lot of an average appearing restaurant with a sign outside proclaiming its name. It appeared more like a diner than restaurant. It was small and probably cozy with that small town flavor that I know Greg appreciated.

We walked inside a hostess greeted us with a welcoming smile. “Good afternoon, gentlemen. How can I help you?”

“WE are all hungry,” Greg announced.

“Well, you came to the right place. This table right here. Will that do?”

“Certainly would,” Greg replied as we all three sat a table with straight back chairs made of wood.

She handed out three menus. “Would y’all care for something to drink?”

“I’ll just have water,” I replied.

“Sweet tea,” Greg answered.

“I’ll have some of that lemonade you got,” Tim replied. She quickly disappeared for the drinks while we looked at the menu. “I don’t know if they serve steak this time of day, Greg. I don’t see it here on the menu.”

“Well, I’ll buy a steak dinner somewhere else then.”

I watched them make up their minds when the waitress came up and smiled down at us. “Are y’all ready?”

“I’ll have the sandwich and salad,” I told her in pleasant tone.

“I’m going for the double burger and fries,” Greg asked,

“I’ll have your chicken basket,” Tim asked.

She smiled at us one last time before disappearing into the kitchen. I heard Greg tell Tim, “It’s been a while since we sat down and shot the bull.”

“That’s for sure, Greg. Of course, you being on the road driving truck is a good portion of that to be sure.”

“Yeah, it is.”

“Now how did you two get together?”

“As near as I remember, our fathers knew each other from work,” I replied.

“We met at his parents’ sometime later,” Greg continued.

“I was nine and he was six I think it was when I first met him and his brother and sisters,” I said to Tim. “We both have a common interest in Hot Wheels and Match Box cars.”

“I’ll be damn,” Tim quipped with a chuckle. “You’ve known each other that long huh?”

“Yeah, we would go back and forth, either his parents would come down to Wenatchee where I lived, or my parents took us up to Methow where they lived.”

Greg must have told Tim about himself because he nodded as if he knew. Our orders arrived and the conversation stopped for a brief period. What small talk that continued dealt mostly with Tim’s car dealership that worked for and what Greg had planned for me for the next few days. Somewhere along the line the issue of my credit came about, and I pulled up my Esperian credit score. He appeared amazed and satisfied. “Are you currently in the market Jerry?”

“No, not at present. I just bought five acres and got most my money tied into that,” I replied not bothering to enlighten him that I had two other people helping to make the monthly mortgage payment.

“What do you do for a living?” He asked.

“I’m a janitor at a tribal casino near Spokane. Plus, I’m trying to be a famous writer.”

“A writer?”

“Yeah, I have all his books. He’s pretty darn good.”

“Really?” He asked in astonishment. “How many books you got published so far?”

“Two from a regular publisher and three self-published,” I replied.

“Well, I’ll be,” Tim stated. “You never told me I was in the midst of greatness, Greg.”

“I’m not that great,” I said feeling the heat on my face radiate with embarrassment.

“Yeah, he’s good but not great yet,” Greg said with a smile.

I gave him that ‘whatever’ expression and ate the last of my salad. It appeared everyone else had finished too and we all got up and went to the hostess. After paying we got in his truck and drove back to the dealership where Greg dropped off Tim.

As I mentioned earlier, the town is small but has a history to it starting with the Cherry Mansion. It was built in the 1830s and looked pretty much like a house a rich person would build and live in, who happened to be the ferry operator of the Tennessee River. Apparently, it was where Civil War General Wallace died after being mortally wounded at Shiloh.

Greg took me there first where we then took a tour of the other historical; homes, most all built after the Civil War. We then stopped by a church that had been there since the Civil War and then we went to the Harden County Museum.

It consisted of Native, prehistoric artifacts just like the ones I saw at the First Americans Museum in Oklahoma City back in February when I visited Uncle Hal. There were also items of the Civil War, such as swords, muskets, pistols, and rifled cannon rounds from Parrot guns. Also mentioned was how the county has evolved since then.

I came away with a fresh perspective this town that I wouldn’t have considered and allowed my ignorance and prejudice to reflect early assumptions I had. Like all places, its people are what makes a town a community. It has its good points and bad. Human nature is no different. It’s all a matter of perspective and being open minded about learning new things.

Tomorrow, I promised Greg, I would help him with his truck. Not the one he just bought but the one that makes him money, his Freightliner.

Day 4

“Jerry, I got to find out what’s wrong with my truck. You want to come with or stay here?” Greg asked me as he collected eggs from the chicken coop, using a plastic sand bucket one would give to their toddler to play in sand boxes or lake shores.

“I was thinking of going with you. I’ll drive your Titan. At my age and physical condition, I don’t think I could climb up into the cab of your truck like done back when I visited you in 2014.”

“That would work out fine. I’ll be right in as soon as I gather breakfast.” He smiled as he disappeared inside the chicken coop.

I went into the trailer where Terry was slowly moving about with her walker in front of her.” If you my loyal readers aren’t familiar with fifth wheel trailers, a good hint is never get in the way of someone traveling in a walker. It’s best to get out of her way because chances are she was on a mission. I stood just inside the kitchen area as she maneuvered around me and up the steps to the bathroom.

Greg came in and commenced to preparing breakfast. Terry came down a little later and I sat on the recliner I sat on yesterday. I watched recorded “Undercover Boss,” while Greg helped Terry until she kicked him out and he sat on his recliner.

After breakfast, I followed Greg in his pickup truck while drove his money maker to a friend’s shop where he planned to fix one of the rear tires. He complained it skipped on the highway. They’re back roads, paved and center lined that I followed Greg’s Freightliner—actually I’m not certain it is a Freightliner. I know it’s not a Mac or Volvo. I guess at this point in the story it isn’t important. It’s a big diesel fueled, powerful truck built and designed to haul big trailers filled with stuff that keeps the economy rolling.

Anyway, I’m following Greg in his big truck and I’m looking at the rear tires and for the life of me can’t discern which tire is skipping or bouncing abnormally. If it’s doing what Greg described that I can’t see it.

We arrived at this house where a mechanic’s shop sits about thirty south by itself. There are trailers parked behind this shop and sign out front announcing a trucking company. I guess Greg began driving truck for this outfit before he landed bigger and better jobs. I mean I don’t know if these guys are big or good. J

Suffice to say the man inside the shop was repairing a tractor. Out front was another big truck similar to Greg’s though I suspected Greg’s was twenty years newer. He was big bruiser of a man with thick arms wearing a t-shirt and jeans with tennis shoes.

I shook his hands and Greg introduced me to Brian, the other initial for “J & B Trucking of Savannah, Tennessee.” Brian came off the tractor and shook my hand. Greg went out to his pickup and moved it further back than where I parked it, which I thought was safely moved off the road and still close enough to the shop. He backed it off the road entirely and facing the shop.

He grabbed a bottle of water and chugged down half. His t-shirt appeared wet with his sweat. His face had grease smudges that he used paper towels to wipe his face and hands. Greg made some phone calls to other truck suppliers, fearing he might have to spend hundreds if not thousands of dollars to repair what he thought might be wrong with it. Brian went back to work on the tractor. I sat on an RV captain’s chair and waited.

After a bit, Greg came back with a scowl on his bearded face and informed us there wasn’t anybody who could replace the parts cheaply. By now, Brian appeared done working on his tractor. “Go ahead and park your rig there,” he told Greg and wiped his grease-stained hands on another paper towel.

Greg backed his rig very close to where he parked his pickup, and I feared the worst. He barely cleared his newly bought truck with inches to spare and moved his money maker into the shop, nose first. Brian then moved his forklift in behind the rearend of the Freightliner, used chains that he wrapped carefully around the forklift forks and the rear of the truck and proceeded to raise the forklift’s forks up until the rear tires were suspended.

Greg placed the truck in gear and all eight rear tires spun forward. I couldn’t tell whether there was a problem though I noticed a barely brief lateral wobble on the forward right tire. But I figured it must have been a normal issue, but Brian told Greg to stop and check out the issue.

“I need wheel stabilizers then,” Greg stated with displeasure.

“I’ll see what I can come up with,” Brian volunteered and went to another part of the shop. After a time, he came back with four aluminum rings that had predrilled holes to insert the lug nuts onto the tires.

“What do I owe you?” Greg asked in amazement.

“You can pay me a couple hundred later,” Brian stated.

“Jerry, one of these was going to cost me eight hundred,” Greg explained as they went to work, pulling the tires off the truck and then removing the wheels from the tires so they could remove the old stabilizers and replace them with the replacement parts.

It was mid afternoon by the time Greg and Brian were finished replacing that necessary parts and then remounting the tires. Brian left to run banking errands and Greg and I went home. He apologized for not being able to go to the battlefield.

“Don’t worry about it Greg. There’s always tomorrow. We can go then.”

Day 5

I don’t know who or how the conversation evolved into the day Greg’s mother died. The description and the emotion that we all felt was enough for Greg to announce, “Can we talk about something else?”

Greg then got up and told me we were going to Shilo. He promised me yesterday that we would check out the Civil War battlefield. Of course, I still mistakenly assumed the battlefield was in Northern Mississippi and figured we were going on a road trip.

Imagine my surprise when we drove about six miles south of Savannah and took a left off the divided highway and took Pittsburg Landing Road and there it was, the monuments, the relics, the cannons aligned for us tourists to gawk at and enjoy.

I got out and walked along the road. I considered this hallowed ground. Three thousand soldiers from both sides, who believed their cause was correct, died on this field over 160 years ago. I felt so many emotions as I walked alone. I heard birds chattering about and wondered if those same ancestors made the same cawing sounds on that day. Or was it deathly quiet, like just before a storm struct. I saw the forest, the open fields where countless lives were lost and forever changed, the blue sky of late September, cloudless and warm, and I stopped in front of one of many monuments and took pictures.

Greg rolled up to me and I’m sure he saw how affected I was. I wanted to check out the visitors’ center where they were going to show the Ken Burns documentary of the battle. I got in his truck, and we moved to a parking area in front of the information center. We sat in the theater where the civil war battle was aired for our benefit. The lights dimmed and we got to see and learned the futility of war.

It is still my belief that both John Adams and Thomas Jefferson are to blame for this war. It was an avoidable truth of our common history. All they had to do back in 1797 was outlaw slavery in America. Granted, what to do with freed Black Americans would have been an unavoidable consequence of such an act. But this war would have not occurred when it did.

After the film, we went to the cemetery. At first, I wanted to go down there and see each tomb stone, touch the granite or marble headstones. But it was so vast, so overwhelming, so emotional I thought it best to take a picture using a panoramic shot of what I experienced and hoped that whoever saw that picture, they would feel what I felt.

We then went back inside the truck and drove slowly down these roads that led us past skirmishes, places such as the Hornets’ Nest, a heavily wooded field where it was said the mini balls that flew from both sides sounded like a nest of angry hornets. The ground where General Johnston died after he was shot in the back of his knee. I told Greg that there’s an artery behind the knee. He probably didn’t even realized he was wounded until he died. Bloody Pond and the ferry landing where Union reinforcements arrived favoring the balance of the battle on the Sunday of the third day into the North’s favor.

We went back to Savannah and his place. We went to a Mexican restaurant later and then tomorrow we would go to church.

Book Review

My loyal readers, I just received good news on a positive review of my book I Albert Peabody. Kirkus Indie gratefully did the review and it was well received. Please read for yourself, and if you haven’t decided on a Christmas gift, then now is your opportunity.

I, ALBERT PEABODY
Confessions of a Serial Killer
Jerry P. Schellhammer
Austin Macauley (128 pp.)
$6.78 hardcover, $3.32 e-book
ISBN: 9781647509309
May 26, 2023

In Schellhammer’s novel, an elderly serial killer chronicles an alarming string of murders he’s committed over the course of decades.

Albert Peabody sits in a Washington State mental hospital. Authorities suspect the 85-year-old of killing 10 people whose remains were left in urns stashed inside a mausoleum. Albert writes out his confession to Dr. Schwartz: He’d been a POW in the Korean War, then he returned to Spokane, his hometown, and married his high-school sweetheart. Their daughter got sick, and when a doctor failed to save her life, Albert took revenge on the doctor’s child. He confesses to multiple murders spanning the 1960s to the 1980s, mostly committed as responses to what he perceived as slights. He freely admits to other shocking atrocities as well. While Albert acknowledges he’s a monster, he doesn’t think he’s crazy. Schwartz reads pages and pages of descriptions of the man’s crimes but is certain that Albert is keeping something to himself, regarding an apparent deathbed confession of Albert’s father’s. Schellhammer maintains a consistent tone throughout these writings of a narcissistic serial killer—Albert continually addresses Schwartz as “Herr Doctor” and takes unmistakable joy in recounting every awful thing he’s done. While the author avoids graphic details, the killer’s myriad deeds and cold indifference make for a mercilessly dark tale. Beneath Albert’s playful narration, readers get glimpses into his psyche, as when particular questions from Schwartz infuriate him. The killer, on occasion, seemingly contradicts himself, but he’s very clearly not the most reliable narrator, and at least some of these contradictions make sense as the story progresses. There are a few surprises awaiting readers in the final act (some more convincing than others), leading to a gratifying ending.

A fascinating and relentlessly dour peek into an evil mind.
 Kirkus Reviews

Roads From Tennessee Day 1

To start with, people in Tennessee talk funny. It’s also contagious. I had a heck of a time returning back to my normal accent. It must’ve been three days before I stopped combining you and all. My besty had wanted, no begged me to go and visit his place down in Savannah, a mostly rural community. I never got what the population was. According to Bing here the population of Savannah, Tennessee is 7,224. As I’ll explain to you later, this community has more history to it than the fact it’s a small backwater by the Tennessee River. 

Crapped Out

Bob had no idea what town this was that they stopped in front of a building whose lights and neon flashed and buzzed like a swarm of bees. He looked at the site, staring at it, willing it to disappear as snow fell steadily. The sign showing “Treasure Island Resort and Casino” appeared like a siren call. The massive parking lot appeared mostly empty. A sign below the marquee had a time of 4:44.

“Where the hell am I” He asked aloud.

“Silly boy! This is it, where we are going to make us a bunch of money,” Annie told him as she wrapped her long arm around his waist and smacked his jeans clad butt playfully. “Later, we’ll get us a room and have some fun.” Bob looked down at her face, the neon giving her a greenish, purplish, bewitching effect. Her eyes appeared like saucers. She was both exciting and frightening.

“Let’s put this pack on you,” Daryl said as he placed what amounted to a book pack upon Bob’s back. He faithfully slipped his arms through the straps that secured that satchel to his back. It felt heavy. “If security asks to look inside, get out and don’t look back. Hopefully, at this hour they should be just getting done with their shift and won’t pay us any attention.”

Bob now realized what his job was. He stared up at the bigger man and realized he had all the characteristics of a Native, including the high cheek bones and braided brunette hair with strands of gray and white that streaked along the ponytail. “What do I do?”

“You go to these gamblers, who are playing and ask them if they want a little energy boost. It’s going on five in the morning. A lot of these people have been up all night. Give them a small baggy, it’s half of an eight ball, so it will give them that extra pep. Remember, Bob, we don’t want them tripping on us, but wired a bit,” Daryl replied with a grin. Bob saw the perfect white teeth behind the smile and knew they were false.

“How much?” Bob asked.

“Ten,” Annie replied. “No more than ten. We got a lot of product in that pack you’re carrying on your back. If…Oh God, I made a rhyme!”

“Annie, mellow your shit,” Daryl scolded harshly. “If they want more, sell them more.” He told Bob. “We’ll be at the craps table, watching you. Don’t fuck this up if you know what’s good for you. Come on Annie. Stay back. Count to one hundred and then come in, got it?”

“Yeah, sure, I got it.” Bob watched them disappear inside through a revolving door, sounds of circus or carnival-like whistles and bells emanated from inside. Then the sounds muted when the door stopped revolving. He slowly counted to himself until he counted out one hundred and walked inside. Though there were few gamblers inside, the noise appeared deafening as slot machines made their own distinctive whistles, wails, and siren blasts.

He walked past a young couple with piercings and wearing flannel and baggy jeans. One was mesmerized by the spinning wheels of fortune while the other seemed just as addicted her cell phone, apparently texting someone. “Hey,” Bob announced himself. Both seemingly ignored him. “You guys want a little pick me up?”

The girl with blue hair cropped and standing straight up glared up at him. “What’s it you got?” She demanded.

“A little energy,” Bob replied being purposefully evasive. “I’m stoked on it now. It’s great shit.”

“How much?” the dude asked with pierced nose, cheeks, and eyebrows.

“Ten for half an eight.”

“I gotta go to the rest room and take a piss. There’s a handicap stall. Meet me there in about three minutes,” the dude replied while he got up from his seat and disappeared toward the restroom near the entrance. “See you around,” he told her.

“Yeah, whatever,” she replied as she went back on her cell phone and read a Facebook post. Bob so wanted to grab that phone from her hands and throw it against the wall, but he held his temper in check, checked the time on his watch and slowly made his way to the restroom.

The noise from the gaming floor carried inside the restroom, but also there was music piped in that had a country beat. It sounded like some unknown wannabe. He saw the dude finishing and going to the sink to wash up as he continued to the corner stall reserved for disabled guests. Once inside, he removed the heavy pack and opened it. There were seemingly hundreds of small plastic baggies with a white crystalline substance inside. Bob knew what it was, so did the dude who joined him. “I want four, no five. Here’s a Benjamin.”

He handed Bob the fifty bill and Bob handed him the five baggies of meth. “Great doing business with you. Maybe your girlfriend will lay you for your troubles.”

“Her? She’s a bitch. She just likes to do shit on her cell phone. I don’t even think she does drugs. See you.” Dude disappeared and went presumably back to his slot machine while he hoisted the pack over his shoulders and went to another potential client.

He found two others who bought some from him as well and then he went to an elderly couple. “Hey, there, you wanna buy some meth?”

Both glared at him. “Young man, we don’t do drugs. It’s illegal. Aren’t you aware of that?” The older man asked with balding hair and wearing an ugly Christmas sweater. She appeared just as ancient with arthritic and trembling fingers pushing the button, seemingly at will, mindless to what came up on the wheel.

“You should be ashamed of yourself for what you’re doing,” she told him with contempt in her voice. “You run along before I call security on your shenanigans.”

Bob quickly retreated, realizing his mistake. “I’m terribly sorry,” he said as he backed away and turned around, heading toward another bank of slots. A Native housekeeper, emptying ashtrays and dusting the machines’ tops glared disdainfully at him. She was of middle age with graying hair and bi-focal glasses with black frames.

A black man and white woman came by, and the white woman asked, “You selling?”

“Yeah, where you wanna meet?”

“That rest room over there. I just came out. There’s no one inside,” She replied. She had flaming red hair and a piercing on her long nose. Her eye pupils were tiny pinpoints. Bob nodded and followed her inside.

“How much product you got?” She asked him once she led him into the handicap stall and he pulled the pack off his back and opened the top.

“I honestly don’t know. If I had to guess, at least thirty pounds worth.”

“Seriously? Dude!” She squealed out. “How much?”

“Well, ten for one of these baggies.” He watched her pull money from a loose-fitting blouse, assuming she must’ve had it attached to a money clip on her bra or something. She had hundred-dollar bills that she rifled through and handed him twenty such bills.

“I want two hundred bags!”

He suddenly got nervous and thought maybe this was a setup or a bust. “Do you have to be so loud?” Bob asked. “Maybe this was a bad idea.”

Just then the black man came in. “What’s the problem?”

“He’s acting weird Lucifer.”

“Lucifer?” Bob asked incredulously.

“What’s your trip? You got the bag opened just sell her what she wants,” he told him.

“I don’t…I don’t know.” Bob wanted so much to escape these people.

“Okay, here’s five hundred more, if it’s the money,” she said with displeasure in her tone.

“Alright,” Bob finally replied. He counted out the two hundred bags and handed it to her. She placed the contents in a handbag, closed the flap and immediately left the stall and restroom. Lucifer glared at him a brief moment before he exited the restroom.

Bob’s entire body shook in fear, feeling the adrenaline coursed through his body. He sat on the toilet when he heard someone walk in. She sat in the stall next to his.

“How much you got so far?” Annie asked from the opposite wall. He heard her pissing in the toilet.

“I just sold two hundred and before that about fifty more. I think.” His mind felt like a fog.

“In an hour, leave the floor and go to the hotel. We’re in room four-twenty.” She unrolled toilet paper from its spindle and then got up. The automatic flusher swept the piss down the toilet. She left him. Bob slowly got up from the toilet seat and left the restroom. A security officer was waiting for him. She had the light brown skin and raven colored hair with brown eyes of a Native. She was also heavy set and looked menacing, apparently confident that she could easily handle him.

“What were you doing in the women’s restroom?” She asked in a demanding tone.

“Women’s restroom?” He looked innocently at her. Her picture name badge read Lucy under her photo. “Oh crap, I went to the wrong restroom! I’m sorry. I think I’ve been drinking too much.”

“You got ID on you?”

“Just my South Dakota drivers’ license,” Bob replied as he pulled his wallet from his back pocket. She peered at his license briefly and announced on her Motorola, “All clear. He mistakenly took the wrong restroom.”

“Copy, security, surveillance, clear.”

“I suggest you sleep it off. We have rooms available in our hotel. I suggest you book one, Mr. McCormach.”

“Thanks, I’ll definitely do that.” He watched her go on to another call and snuck back inside the restroom to recover the pack. Just as he retrieved it that same security guard came in and sat inside a stall. He cursed his bad luck but ran quickly out anyway as he heard the unmistakable sound of pee splashing inside a toilet.

Bob sighed in relief as he left the restroom and went to the craps table where Daryl continued playing. He stood just behind him and watched him roll the red dice on green felt table, a white plastic chip covered the come line.

Bob never played craps before, didn’t know the first thing about it. So, he watched the dice thrown against the wall and even numbers came up. “Eight is the number,” the dealer called out.

Daryl fisted the dice, blowing on them and then threw them. A four and three came up. “Seven! You crapped out. Sorry better luck next time,” the Native dealer called out.

“Son of a bitch,” Daryl exclaimed as the chips were pulled from the come line and he was left with nothing. He turned around and saw Bob, who smiled at him as if he were an old friend. Daryl walked past him, ignoring his presence, went toward the hotel lobby.

Bob stayed on the casino floor, peddling what he could to others who played their slot games. But, like Daryl, he failed and after an hour he walked to the elevator and went up the fourth floor where he found the room and knocked.

“Who is it?” Daryl called from the door.

“Bob,” he deadpanned.

“Bob’s not here,” he called out as he heard them laughing.

“No, I’m Bob,” he replied impatiently.

“Bob’s not here,” he yelled out, amid more laughter.

Finally, Bob got it. “Ha, ha, very funny. Let me in please.”

The door unlocked and opened with the couple giggling at him, along with another pair he never met. Both appeared dangerous and he felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand out. He shuddered involuntarily while he pulled the pack from his back laying the satchel on a chair. He then opened a flap and handed him the cash from the sales.

Daryl counted the money carefully, giving Bob two hundred for his efforts. “Thanks, Daryl,” Bob told him as he pulled out his wallet and placed the cash inside and folded it and placed it back in his back pocket.

“What are we going to do with him?” The tall stranger asked Daryl.

“Don’t worry about it. It’s going to be handled,” Daryl replied.

“We’re gonna party and then later poof, all gone.”

Bob got nervous from the conversation. Are they talking about me? “Hey, I’m right here guys,” he told the group.

“I’m not liking this, the way you got it going,” the big and fat Native who glared at Bob as if he were annoying fly buzzing about. He was bald except for the mohawk that ran along top of his head.

Night Fear: Part 2

“I guess, what kind of game, Xanadu?”

“I ask you a question about yourself, and you answer truthfully. Then you do the same, ask me a question and I answer truthfully.” The thought of this both intrigued and frightened me.

“But I already know as much as you confessed to me earlier that I would want to know.”

“That’s just the surface, what you can clearly see, and yes I confessed how I got this deformity, which you wouldn’t have guessed in a million years. Are you ready? I’ll start out simple.”

“What happens at the end?”

“If you answer the last question truthfully, you live. But if you lie, even a little white lie, I must kill you.” She smiled at me as if she were kidding.

“Are you serious?” My back went back into defensive posture.

“No, silly, I was kidding, but you will have to do something for lying to absolve your sin. We’ll decide on your punishment later.”

“Okay, I guess there’s no harm in this.” Another thunder boom erupted above us after a lightning strike lit the night sky.

“What is your favorite color?”

“Blue,” I replied. “Your?”

“Violet,” Xanadu said.

“I would have figured brown or pink.”

She ignored my comment. “What’s your favorite season?”

“Summer, and yours?”

“Spring and autumn because it symbolizes life.”

“I like summer because I like to go out and do fun things like camping,” I told her.

“What’s your favorite hobby?”

“I like to cook. Then I create recipes of what I created and put them into my cookbooks.” She appeared intrigued by my answer.

“I thought you were just making up stuff to get my confidence.”

“Do you want to see the book I have so far? Oh duh, we can’t, it’s all on my computer and the power is shut off. When the power returns, perhaps?”

“Maybe, now it’s your turn.”

“Okay, what is your hobby?”

“Playing these kinds of games. I really get to know a person this way. Next question what was your first car?”

“Oh, that was ages ago, when I was in high school. I think it was a 72 Firebird my dad got me. It was old and used and beat up. I learned to fix it up and sold it four years later to go to technical college. You?”

“My first car I got after I graduated from high school seven years ago. It was a minivan. A Dodge I think it was.”

“Do you still have it?”

She shook her head no. “Next question, what’s your favorite food?”

“Pizza with everything on it. It’s in my cookbook. I call it ‘The Garbage Pit.’ And yours?”

“Saulsbury steak with mash potatoes and gravy with mixed peas and carrots. When we had that it meant my parents weren’t fighting like brothers and sisters. We had it rarely, as you can imagine.”

I was intrigued by her answer. I also felt sorry for her because that kind of meal seemed so basic, as if made in a buffet line kitchen and served to the masses. “I got a question for you. Did you have any pets?”

“Once, I found this turtle on the middle of the road. I took it home but I didn’t know what to feed it and released it back to where I found it. The little time I had it, I knew he wasn’t happy. He probably had to feed his family, but later read that turtles are like snakes, once they hatch from their eggs they’re on their own. I never had any desire to own a pet like a dog or cat. I didn’t want to see them grow old and then die.”

“I had dogs and cats throughout my life. I don’t have anything now because, as you said the last one passed a short time ago. I haven’t had the time lately to go and find one.”

“Next question, who was your favorite president?”

“John Kennedy, though he didn’t accomplish as much as he should have in his short time. And yours?”

“Bill Clinton most recently, but also Franklin Pearce because he was so handsome. The only problem I had with these men, until Obama was they were white, and they preferred to pass the buck on the slavery issue before the Civil War, and then didn’t want to deal with the prejudice issue after.”

“Interesting point,” I said to her. “Lincoln was the only one who had the courage to stop slavery.”

“If John Adams had the backbone, he should have signed that emancipation proclamation, and damn the consequences later,” she appeared on a roll now as her eyes danced with the candlelight. I laughed at her sponk. “Why did you laugh?”

“I find it refreshing that you and I share the same thoughts on history. Yes, I agree. If he had done that there would have been no civil war. Granted the southern states might have gone back to England out of pure malice and spite, but it definitely would prevented the calamities later on.”

She looked thoughtful at me, apparently trying to read my thoughts. “What is your favorite love song?”

“ ‘Time in a Bottle,’ by Jim Croce, and yours?”

“I don’t think I have one, though I like ‘I Will Always Love You’ by Dolly Parton and Whitney Houston.”

“Interesting,” I replied. “Okay, next question.”

“Okay, but I must warn you these next questions are going to be harder and your punishment, more severe if you lie. You must be absolutely honest with me.”

I looked at her with uncertain eyes. “How…I mean how would you know if I was lying?” “Oh, I know. You have been truthful far, correct?”

“Yes, of course.”

“You looked me straight in the eyes, your voice was relaxed and conversational. You were being honest. If your body language deviates at all from how you respond to these next questions, I will know you’re lying.”

“Okay, I have  no skeletons in my closet, excuse the cliché.”  

“I don’t care about that. Okay here is your first question, In The Wizard of Oz, by Lyman Frank Baum, he portrayed our most base fears on the characters, Scarecrow, Tinman and Lion: Fear of not knowing, fear of not caring for others, and not having the courage to step and do right. Which fear best represents you?”

“I don’t know. I never read the book, I’m afraid.”

“Then the first?”

“No, maybe, I don’t know.”

“Next question, if you were awakened in the middle of the night by a loud crash, would you go and investigate?”

“Yes I would.”

“Without fear?”

“I’m sure I would feel anxiety and apprehension. It’s human nature, but I would still investigate just for the peace of mind it might bring.”

“What if it did not bring you peace of mind? What if you were confronted by someone or something that could harm you or even kill you?”

I looked at her trying to figure out where this was leading. “I don’t know. I would have to rely on instinct and hope I could defend myself if it came to that.”

“Very good, you are definitely the scare crow here. Next question, going back to high school did you ask a certain girl out to the prom?”

“Why yes, her name was Suzy Best. Gosh that was a long time ago.”

Did you rape her?”

“No! I did not. I was a perfect gentleman to her that night at the prom. We kissed goodnight at her parents’ front porch. Then sometime later that night someone snuck into her bedroom, raped and then strangled her to death. That was in the news.

He was caught by the way and confessed. I think he’s still in prison.” My mind began racing and my eyes darted back and forth to her and to the darkness on either side of her.

“You are lying, aren’t you? You raped her and placed the rope you used on someone else, a nobody with a history of drug and alcohol abuse. You framed him.”

“NO! Where did you get that? It was not me.” I felt my heart pounding loud in my chest. Beads of sweat formed on my brow and under my arms. I began breathing through my mouth.

“Very well, next question, where did you meet your wife?”

“I met her at a job I used to work for back in 2005.” I began to relax.

“Was it a happy marriage?”

“Yes, it was a pleasant time in our lives.”

“Why did she leave?”

“She didn’t give me a reason, but I suspect it was because I lost my mother so suddenly. I guess she couldn’t handle my mourning any longer. I still mourn for her.”

“How did your mother die?”

“It was a heart attack.”

“Did you kill her?”

“No! Why are you insinuating this stuff?” My heart began pounding louder and louder. My mind felt numb and I couldn’t think of anything to say.

“You killed your mother and you killed your wife, didn’t you?”

“For the last time NO!!! I killed no one. EVER!!!” My chest ached and I felt a sharp cramp in my shoulder Oh my God I think I’m having a heart attack!

“What is your worst fear George?”

“What?”

“What are you afraid of?”

She already knew the answer to that question as she slowly arose from her chair and went to the front door. Just before she opened it, she blew out the candle. The very moment she opened the door the candle blew out on me…

End

Roads From Tennessee

To start with, people in Tennessee talk funny. It’s also contagious. I had a heck of a time returning back to my normal accent. It must’ve been three days before I stopped combining you and all. My bestie had wanted, no begged me to go and visit his place down in Savannah, a mostly rural community. I never got what the population was. According to Bing here the population of Savannah, Tennessee is 7,224. As I’ll explain to you later, this community has more history to it than the fact it’s a small backwater by the Tennessee River. 

Tuesday afternoon I left Spokane on a Delta flight bound to Atlanta. I arrived around 7:30 and was on the Delta concourse that was an airport all itself. I vaguely remembered coming through Atlanta when I left Fort Jackson after my initial training after joining the National Guard. Apparently, this airport grew exponentially since. 

I went straight to the boarding area and waited for the 10:45pm flight, passing my time by listening to my music on my cellphone with noise cancelling headphones and texting Greg that I was waiting to board my next flight. If the name appears familiar, I also did a blog two years ago for his departed mother’s funeral. We have known each other since I was nine and he was six years old. 

Something came up on the alert board informing us heading ton Memphis that the flight was delayed. I thought nothing of it and continued texting my friend letting him know there was some sort of delay. I continued listening to my music. Another flight to Cincinnati came up and those people left. It was now after eleven. I was alone. Everybody had gone. What the heck? 

I texted Greg and told him the situation. He called back. “What do you mean you missed your flight?” 

“I don’t know. I thought the delay just meant they were holed up and would arrive shortly before taking off to Memphis. But they ended up at another part of the airport. I guess I’m getting a hotel room tonight and I’ll see you in the morning.” 

I wasn’t the only one who missed this flight. Another man from Pensacola, Florida sat in one of those wheelchairs the airport provides. Not knowing where I was going, I took this porter’s invitation and also sat in an offered wheelchair, and he pushed us both out to where the airport shuttles going to other hotels. 

After a time, a long, long time, we finally had a van shuttle us to the hotel the airline supported us. I planned to give the driver a tip for his efforts, assuming that this shuttle ride was also on Delta’s dime. “That’s $25 please,” the young Arabic looking man told me. I was more than a little taken aback as I handed him a twenty-dollar bill to go with the five dollars I just handed him to go basically around the block. 

I was too tired to argue what I felt certain was an error on his part and grabbed my briefcase that was big enough to handle my toiletries as well as my laptop, headphones, and cell phone. I got my complementary room and went to bed after taking a quick shower. I checked my watch, which I still had on PDT that showed 11:30. I set the alarm on my phone for five am. 

Night Fear: Part 1

An angry storm spit rain and wind whipped the trees about. I looked from the comfort of my warm house and hoped the power would return soon. In an instant I saw the lightning crack and the thunder clap so loud I jumped a foot from the wood floor.

I then saw in that instant of electric lightning light her standing just outside my door, my window, my house. Then the image was gone. A person, woman? Or was it a spirit, an aberration or poltergeist? I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand out.

Against my base instincts, I ventured outside into the stormy night of whipping wind and drenching rain that soaked my shirt and caused the material to appear translucent against my skin. I shivered but whether from the storm or something more terrifying, I  couldn’t hazard a guess. I used my cellphone’s flashlight and shined in the area where I thought I saw this woman.

“Hello? Don’t be afraid. Come inside the house. I’ll keep you warm and safe. I’m George Rockefeller. Not the famous Rockefellers of New York, but a poor and distant cousin several times removed. Please come out. I promise I’ll be a gentleman in every sense of the word.”

I heard nothing save the wind crashing into the trees. I waited for a reply but none came. Perhaps it was my imagination playing games with me. How did that song go? Just my imagination, running away with me.

I hummed the song as I turned and went back inside.

“You promise?”

The sound, the voice froze me in place. The hairs on my neck arose again and I stifled the urge to scream like a little girl. “Yes, yes I promise. Come to the light here so I can see you.”

She slowly appeared and I saw a pale woman with raven colored hair, a long nose and dark eyes stared back at me. “Hello George,” She said with a coy grin that caused her skin flush red. Her eyes casted downward as if I embarrassed her.

She wore a thin jacket, perhaps a windbreaker that soaked through. She had it zipped up, but she shivered anyway. “Neither one of us are dressed for this nasty storm. Let’s go inside. I think I have a flannel shirt or sweat pants you can borrow from me.” I looked down past her jacket and saw a saturated pair of jeans, holy, as was the style teenagers wore these days. I doubted that she was younger than 30 years though.

I pressed my right palm onto the back of her jacket and guided her inside. “I have a lantern and some candles I can light. I didn’t earlier because I like storms like this if I don’t have to be outside, that is,” I chuckled at my attempt at humor in this time. For whatever reason I felt anxious.

“Your wife doesn’t mind?” She asked.

“My wife left me ten years ago.”

“Oh, I’m sorry,” she quickly apologized.

“It’s water under a bridge now,” I told her with a nervous laugh. “You are the first woman in ten years that has crossed this threshold.”

She looked about the darkened living room. I’m sure she must’ve imagined how I kept this house now that she knew I lived alone. Like some men I know, I’m one who prefers an uncluttered house. I admit I dust rarely, mop the floors infrequently but I keep my kitchen and bathroom clean.

“Penny for your thoughts?” I asked her as she looked seemingly beyond the darkness.

“I guess I’m trying to categorize you; see where you fit in this world.”

“Like I said I’m a very distant relative of those famous New York Rockefellers. Beyond that, there is nothing else. I work as an auto mechanic, I write as a hobby, mostly cookbooks, and I like viewing storms in the darkened house I live in.”

I left her standing in the dark living room as I searched the closet for that lantern I promised her I had. At least she was pleasant to the eyes, I thought as I pulled the lantern from the top shelf and pressed a button that would, should turn it on.

Nothing. “Damn, the battery must be dead,” I muttered more to myself than to this stranger. I looked at her in an apologetic air. She appeared tall but slightly shorter than me. I’m five foot eleven, though I’ve gotten away with telling people I was six foot. Like me, she had a slender body, maybe slightly anemic by her pale face and hands.

“Oh, you said you have candles. I’m more favorable to that, George.”

“Yes, of course. I’ll go and get them.” I went to the kitchen after closing the closet door. There was something about the situation that had me both excited at the prospect of entertaining a woman for the first time in ten years and a nagging anxiety that she might be dangerous.

I went to the utility drawer and began rifling through the various tools I kept inside when I found three candles I used the last time the power went out from the last storm we had. Next to the candles sat a disposable lighter, which I used to ignite the wicks, casting a yellowish glow. My eyes immediately lost night vision capability and all I saw outside the outer boundary of this limited light was darkness.

She was right there and I jumped. “Shit you scared me.”

“Oh, I’m sorry. I followed you. I assumed you heard me.”

“No, I didn’t hear you,” I replied, as I slowly recovered and handed her the other candle. I took mine to a twin holder and pressed the candles firmly onto the spike. “I don’t think I have an extra one for you though,” I told her. “I never got you name.”

“Xanadu,” she replied.

“What an unusual name!”

“It’s an idealized place,” she replied. “Kinda like Eden.”

She held the candle slightly away from her face. I saw the beauty of her and a blemish under her nose, like scarred over defect that will undoubtedly be with her for life. In life there are always imperfections, I reminded myself as I forced myself to look beyond her upper lip and focused instead on her eyes, a deep, deep brown color. They mesmerized me. “Wasn’t there a movie by that name?”

“Yes, and a song by Olivia Newton John.” A loud clap of thunder erupted and she and I both jumped. We laughed at each other. “You mentioned dry clothes?”

“Yes I did. Please, stay here. If you’d like, there are some snacks in the cupboard over there and I think maybe some fruit in the fridge.” I quickly left her and followed the candle light into my bedroom and opened a drawer from an antique bureau I inherited from my mother after her passing ten years ago. It was a rough year and I believed I shut my wife out to the point of leaving me. She couldn’t handle my mood anymore.

I searched and found the sweatpants, and then I took a bathrobe hanging from my bedroom door. I changed out of my shirt as well, opting for a sweatshirt with the technical college’s logo on its front I once attended several years ago, and took them to the kitchen. I saw her sitting at the table. She had poured the melted wax on the table and stuck the candle fast upon the tabletop. She ate crackers, a variety of fresh fruit mostly melons and pineapple chunks, and slices of cheddar cheese from a platter I had bought a while back.

“Here you go,” I told her with lightheartedness as I stared at the disfigured tabletop that I imagined was ruined now. “I hope that cleans up.”

She looked confused by my comment. “Oh, the candle! Yes, it will clean up very nicely.”

“It’s just it’s an antique I got from my mother’s inheritance.”

“Oh, I’m sorry,” she apologized with sincerity. She got up and snatched the clothes from my hand and went into the living room. I afforded her privacy and sat at the table on a chair opposite from the one she sat on. “Do you have a washer I can put these in?”

“I do but the power is off. It will do you little good now.”

“It would be a place to stow them until the power does come on,” she replied tersely. She walked back into the kitchen, her wet clothes in a bundle cradled in one arm, her candle in the other,

“In the bathroom down the hall on the left is where I keep a laundry basket. You can use that for the time being.” I placed a cheese slice in my mouth. “The washer and dryer are in the basement. It would be too dangerous for you to go there now.”

Her mouth worked on something to come back on, but then smiled and left the kitchen, walking toward the bathroom down the hallway where she disposed of her wet clothes. A moment later I heard the toilet flush and then water running from the faucet. I had moved into the living room and sat on my recliner, though I sat with my back straight up and my bottom inclined toward the front of the chair. She made me nervous.

She came out wearing the sweat pants and robe, its sash knotted securely. The front of the robe showed a hint of her young chest. I was uncertain how developed she was but assumed had little to brag about. “Sit down,” I told her pointing at the chair next to me. An end table sat between us. She hesitated, then acquiesced. She too sat on the seat but never fully relaxed. It was as if we were on a blind date and meeting each other for the first time. “Xanadu,” I blurted out without thinking as if trying the name on for taste and feel.

“Yes?”

“It’s such an unusual name, quite unique.”

“I would like to think of myself that way.”

“Your mother must have been a very creative woman.”

“She wasn’t. I made up that name after I turned of age and left my family five years ago.”

“What was your birth name then?”

“Blanch,” she replied in bitterness as if she just bit into a lemon.

“But that’s a method of cooking. Why on earth would she resort to naming you that?”

“Ask her yourself. She hated me anyway.”

“But why?”

“Her brother, my dad, raped her when she was a teenager. Her parents, my grandparents, were strictly religious types and refused to have an abortion performed, insisting they raise me proper.”

I was shocked at her answer to say the least. “It must have been hard growing up knowing that bitter truth.”

“All I have to do is look in the mirror every day and am reminded the effect of my mother’s rape and their sin.” She put the candle closer to her face showing me the harelip.

“I’m so sorry for your horrible, horrible life.” I couldn’t think of a suitable line to use. I looked at her, but at the same time I wanted to cast my eyes away from the deformity. “Why haven’t a plastic surgeon taken pity on you and get that fixed?”

“Pity?” She flashed angry eyes at me. If she were Medusa of Greek myth, I’m sure I would have turned to stone. “I don’t want anyone’s pity, George!”

“I guess I said that wrong. I apologize,” I replied quickly. “Your speech is impeccable though.”

It took her a moment to calm herself down before she replied, “I practiced every day, learning how to enunciate the words I would need to use.” She seemed to relax her defenses and leaned back in her chair. I did the same. It was obvious by the storm outside; we weren’t going anywhere tonight. “You want to play a game?”